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The Ghost is lurking at: Room 218 sa dorm.. dito ako nakiki-internet eh ahohoho
listening to the melody of: Moment of Truth - FM Static
craving to eat: Wala naman.. I'm happy with my diet =)
She wants to: Get in the mood for studying, see loki, and have a vacation!
but she's stuck: In these pink 4 walled room.. waiting for tomorrow to come xD
I'm happy? Sad? Excited? I don't know. Mixed emotions fill my heart as of this moment. Please bear with me as I use this post to sort out all these feelings. xD sankyuu
Sad: Well, my dad is still here, so I'm not really looking forward to go home these days. I have some unexplainable hatred for him. I know it's bad but I just can't help it, I'm only human and I can't be perfect. I can understand anyone but him and I think my system isn't willing to do so anymore. I'm only surviving his presence due to my gratitude and respect for him as my father. But love, concern, and all other things in between seems to be gone...
Panic: I have loads of exams next week, and I still haven't studied a page in any subjects! xD to be more panic-y I'll torture myself by enumerating all my schoolworks before vacation (torture? = emoo! LoL!)
Mon(3-16): Activity Proposal Report for CWTS1
Tue(17): Eng 1 Exam <-- nanganganib ako d2.. I suxx at grammar!
Wed(18): Hum1 Exam <-- oral examination ata to.. Q&A LoL!
Thu(19): Math1 Exam <-- bagsak na tlaga ako d2.. haha!
Fri(20): Nasc2 Exam, Eng2 thesis deadline <-- not so endangered, pero kelangan pumasa!
Sat(21): CWTS1 Demo <-- ahuahu >.<
Hindi pa ako sure sa schedule ng exams sa PE1 at Math2, Hopefully after this dreaded week wala na akong follow-up exams. That way I can finally enjoy my vacation!!
Confusion: In relation to my acad life, I'm pretty undecided if I should take summer classes or shift schools or change dorms or what.. I have absoloutely no idea of what will come ahead of me, and I myself haven't got any plan.. T_T sux2bme
Frustrated: by the fact that I might not be able to make it to the ozine fest cosplay. It's scheduled on April 3-5, and I haven't got any idea for a costume yet. Will go again as another spectator, watching my friends walk on the stage, get a chance to talk to other cosplayers and simply learn new things? I want to become a part of the cosplaying community. Although it's a bit embarrassing, I want to become someone else, even just for one day. of course I'll do my best to give justice to the character and bring her to life, and for that I'm thinking of going as Tohsaka Rin from FSN XD
Excited: My parents finally approved my night party escapade with Rii! I might get lost along the way, but I hope Loki-sama can accompany me to the venue and I hope mom wouldn't mind that arrangement. I'm honestly not into party stuff but with Rii along I'm sure it'll be a whole different issue. xD This will be my first time going in a party, so goodluck to the naive conservative me! LoL!!
Happily inlove: I'll always save the best for last. Finally the I reached the top of the Ferris Wheel ride. Loki-sama and I aren't arguing that much. It's really amazing how music can alter my mood greatly. He just dedicated me a song then tadaah!~ all my insecurities and doubts went away. Right now I want him to know that I feel like the luckiest girl alive for having him, and his love. I've been dying to create a song in reply to his dedication, but my trusty Ringo-chan (my guitar) has broken strings and failed me. So I now rely to my trusty organ to create a soothing melody to express my feelings toward the man I love most, though I'm sure the song isn't enough to let him know that.. xD
Whew~ I should've advised ppL to get popcorn and soda while reading this.. It's soo Long! LoL xD well.. I'm almost there now.. almost at the end of the semester. Thank God he never left me especially in times when I was totally lost and was gradually losing my sanity. He guided me through this schoolyear and I felt great ease. He gave me endeavors on love and family relationships yet he also gave me the courage to overcome these obstacles with love and understanding. I truly thank God for he is good and ever so merciful, and I'm not being a hypocrite. I admit I do not attend mass often, I don't follow rules of the church, but I do know that there is God, and he really doesn't require us to do all those catholic church stuff, all he wants is for us to love him, and love others the way we love ourselves. xD xD
Sorry I took a spiritual turn there. those aside I'm so glad that I was finally able to sort things in my jumbled heart. (or hypothalamus? or whatever part of the brain is in-charge of emotions) I'm becoming nerdy and sleepy now, so before I cause hemorrhage I'd rather end my post here and get a good night's rest..
xD xD ~('.'~) Omi~
listening to the melody of: Moment of Truth - FM Static
craving to eat: Wala naman.. I'm happy with my diet =)
She wants to: Get in the mood for studying, see loki, and have a vacation!
but she's stuck: In these pink 4 walled room.. waiting for tomorrow to come xD
I'm happy? Sad? Excited? I don't know. Mixed emotions fill my heart as of this moment. Please bear with me as I use this post to sort out all these feelings. xD sankyuu
Sad: Well, my dad is still here, so I'm not really looking forward to go home these days. I have some unexplainable hatred for him. I know it's bad but I just can't help it, I'm only human and I can't be perfect. I can understand anyone but him and I think my system isn't willing to do so anymore. I'm only surviving his presence due to my gratitude and respect for him as my father. But love, concern, and all other things in between seems to be gone...
Panic: I have loads of exams next week, and I still haven't studied a page in any subjects! xD to be more panic-y I'll torture myself by enumerating all my schoolworks before vacation (torture? = emoo! LoL!)
Mon(3-16): Activity Proposal Report for CWTS1
Tue(17): Eng 1 Exam <-- nanganganib ako d2.. I suxx at grammar!
Wed(18): Hum1 Exam <-- oral examination ata to.. Q&A LoL!
Thu(19): Math1 Exam <-- bagsak na tlaga ako d2.. haha!
Fri(20): Nasc2 Exam, Eng2 thesis deadline <-- not so endangered, pero kelangan pumasa!
Sat(21): CWTS1 Demo <-- ahuahu >.<
Hindi pa ako sure sa schedule ng exams sa PE1 at Math2, Hopefully after this dreaded week wala na akong follow-up exams. That way I can finally enjoy my vacation!!
Confusion: In relation to my acad life, I'm pretty undecided if I should take summer classes or shift schools or change dorms or what.. I have absoloutely no idea of what will come ahead of me, and I myself haven't got any plan.. T_T sux2bme
Frustrated: by the fact that I might not be able to make it to the ozine fest cosplay. It's scheduled on April 3-5, and I haven't got any idea for a costume yet. Will go again as another spectator, watching my friends walk on the stage, get a chance to talk to other cosplayers and simply learn new things? I want to become a part of the cosplaying community. Although it's a bit embarrassing, I want to become someone else, even just for one day. of course I'll do my best to give justice to the character and bring her to life, and for that I'm thinking of going as Tohsaka Rin from FSN XD
Excited: My parents finally approved my night party escapade with Rii! I might get lost along the way, but I hope Loki-sama can accompany me to the venue and I hope mom wouldn't mind that arrangement. I'm honestly not into party stuff but with Rii along I'm sure it'll be a whole different issue. xD This will be my first time going in a party, so goodluck to the naive conservative me! LoL!!
Happily inlove: I'll always save the best for last. Finally the I reached the top of the Ferris Wheel ride. Loki-sama and I aren't arguing that much. It's really amazing how music can alter my mood greatly. He just dedicated me a song then tadaah!~ all my insecurities and doubts went away. Right now I want him to know that I feel like the luckiest girl alive for having him, and his love. I've been dying to create a song in reply to his dedication, but my trusty Ringo-chan (my guitar) has broken strings and failed me. So I now rely to my trusty organ to create a soothing melody to express my feelings toward the man I love most, though I'm sure the song isn't enough to let him know that.. xD
Whew~ I should've advised ppL to get popcorn and soda while reading this.. It's soo Long! LoL xD well.. I'm almost there now.. almost at the end of the semester. Thank God he never left me especially in times when I was totally lost and was gradually losing my sanity. He guided me through this schoolyear and I felt great ease. He gave me endeavors on love and family relationships yet he also gave me the courage to overcome these obstacles with love and understanding. I truly thank God for he is good and ever so merciful, and I'm not being a hypocrite. I admit I do not attend mass often, I don't follow rules of the church, but I do know that there is God, and he really doesn't require us to do all those catholic church stuff, all he wants is for us to love him, and love others the way we love ourselves. xD xD
Sorry I took a spiritual turn there. those aside I'm so glad that I was finally able to sort things in my jumbled heart. (or hypothalamus? or whatever part of the brain is in-charge of emotions) I'm becoming nerdy and sleepy now, so before I cause hemorrhage I'd rather end my post here and get a good night's rest..
xD xD ~('.'~) Omi~
The Ghost is lurking at: My room, pero hindi na sa pc table, nsa "Study" table ako.. kasi nandun ung lappytop~ ahoho
listening to the melody of: My Heroine (Acoustic) - Silverstein
craving to eat: I'm eating assorted fruits right now.. naks living healthy raw
She wants to: Have a vacation na!
but she's stuck: cramming!
Hmm. first of all, I'd like to share the etymology of the word crammage (don't be confused, I just made the word up, but if u happen to google it and came across a real word, feel free to debunk my "invented meaning")
Crammage = Homonym of the word Carnage, as for the meaning of carnage, it is usually associated to gore, slaughter, violence.. and yeah the word crammage came from the root word cram, which means to intensively study in a short period of time. So what does crammage mean? Extreme cramming to the point that you're like being slaughtered. Imagine not only nosebleed, but hemorrhage and the likes.. LoL.
I hope that clarified everything.. well at least the title.. So why crammage?
Because I'm in that state right now!! Ahohoho
I have exams tomorrow (or should I say later) at 1pm, but I'll have to meet my ENG2 partner to finalize our paper. Goodluck to us! >.< So far We're only able to finish 2 out of 6 chapters. We haven't done our survey yet, and we haven't visited our adviser since god knows when.. Now you know why I'm in crammage! XD
It was a good thing that I got my laptop finally working, although it runs on vista (which is so slow, and I hate it!) it's pretty well now. I've decided to name my laptop Gururu-chan.. for some reason guru guru means circles right? (correct me if I'm wrong) and my laptop has swirl designs on it.. so yeah~ xD that explains
I really should be writing my paper right now, but I think I can't rush something esp when my mind isn't working. Should I blame cabal? Ahoho I've become extremely addicted to cabal again that I spend my precious time playing rather than eating, sleeping or even playing the piano.
This is bad... There's only 4weeks left for the sem, and I have to make the most out of it.. I hope I pass my subjects this sem like how I did last time, but I tend to phail deadlines and exams. Sux2bme.
Okay okay enough slacking off I'll get back to work now.. Coffee break is over xD
jaa!
~('.'~) OmI~
listening to the melody of: My Heroine (Acoustic) - Silverstein
craving to eat: I'm eating assorted fruits right now.. naks living healthy raw
She wants to: Have a vacation na!
but she's stuck: cramming!
Hmm. first of all, I'd like to share the etymology of the word crammage (don't be confused, I just made the word up, but if u happen to google it and came across a real word, feel free to debunk my "invented meaning")
Crammage = Homonym of the word Carnage, as for the meaning of carnage, it is usually associated to gore, slaughter, violence.. and yeah the word crammage came from the root word cram, which means to intensively study in a short period of time. So what does crammage mean? Extreme cramming to the point that you're like being slaughtered. Imagine not only nosebleed, but hemorrhage and the likes.. LoL.
I hope that clarified everything.. well at least the title.. So why crammage?
Because I'm in that state right now!! Ahohoho
I have exams tomorrow (or should I say later) at 1pm, but I'll have to meet my ENG2 partner to finalize our paper. Goodluck to us! >.< So far We're only able to finish 2 out of 6 chapters. We haven't done our survey yet, and we haven't visited our adviser since god knows when.. Now you know why I'm in crammage! XD
It was a good thing that I got my laptop finally working, although it runs on vista (which is so slow, and I hate it!) it's pretty well now. I've decided to name my laptop Gururu-chan.. for some reason guru guru means circles right? (correct me if I'm wrong) and my laptop has swirl designs on it.. so yeah~ xD that explains
I really should be writing my paper right now, but I think I can't rush something esp when my mind isn't working. Should I blame cabal? Ahoho I've become extremely addicted to cabal again that I spend my precious time playing rather than eating, sleeping or even playing the piano.
This is bad... There's only 4weeks left for the sem, and I have to make the most out of it.. I hope I pass my subjects this sem like how I did last time, but I tend to phail deadlines and exams. Sux2bme.
Okay okay enough slacking off I'll get back to work now.. Coffee break is over xD
jaa!
~('.'~) OmI~
The Ghost is lurking at: My parents' room, mas mabilis ung desktop d2~
listening to the melody of: Some jukebox song from the radio outside
feeling: Still a wee bit unstable
craving to eat: can I eat blood? I want to see/smell/taste blood for random reasons..
She wants to: Be happy with the one I love...
but she's stuck: being here, and him being far out there!!!
He said it would've ended if I haven't realized what I've done...
I felt excruciating pain, physically, mentally, emotionally...
I really thought I was going to die...
But I didn't, I can't~ because a tiny streak of hope appeared. I would've been dead at around 3am if it wasn't for a phonecall. I was bleeding and crying like hell that I couldn't see, speak, and think well.
It's always my fault: I never do anything right all along. It was my selfishness. I came to a conclusion that I might be loving too much that I've become greedy for him. I was giving out too much yet receive so little that it makes me frustrated and demanding. I'm full of insecureties that I don't see what I'm worth. I never see what I'm worth because I always think of myself as trash, that's how other people see me anyway. I want to have a place and purpose in this planet and I found it in him, but I guess it was my prejudices that hindered him from making me feel important. I was so scared to trust, to entrust, and to step out of this safe zone of mine. It was all my stupidity, I'm such a pathetic person.. I don't even know if I still deserve what I have right now...
Happiness: He's not happy with me and I can feel that, who would be happy with me anyway? He deserves to be happy, and I can perfectly understand if he wants to leave, even though it hurts me badly. I'm not capable of making him happy anymore because I'm too concerned of my demands that I began to choke him. I want him to be happy, but it hurts me to see him happy with someone else, because then again, I'm insecure because I can't make him happy like everyone else does. I don't know what to do anymore...
Love: Yet he chose to stick with me, for 4years he endured me. I can't understand how it works but he was there, he never left. He almost left me now, but I was so desperate for him not to leave that I pleaded. Maybe I should've just let him go? If you really love a person you can let him go. Love is patient, love is kind, it doesn't envy and own. and I've violated all those, so does it mean that I don't love him? When I asked him he told me "no, not just because you don't do by the definition of love means you don't love me. I'm not that shallow". I've been demanding a lot of things from him that I failed to see the little things that he's done. I was really very scared when he can't answer me when I asked if he still loves me. It was so painful that the wound on my pulse is nothing compared to the pain I'm feeling inside.
Death: the ultimate solution that I can think of, but on the other hand this is the ultimate thing that he hated the most. I couldn't think of anything else. I'm being selfish, I want to end the pain. I don't want to see myself inflicting pain to others. I could imagine that their life would all be better without me. Sure they'll grieve, but only for a short time, they'll learn to move on like other people do with their lives... that's how life goes, people come and go, I'll just be one of the many other people who came by their life.. and I'll be mighty proud to see that they're finally getting their share of happiness when I'm gone, because it is only I that hinders them from happiness.
I never know what I do that I deserve this, or maybe I'm just really hurting myself? maybe I'm slowly becoming a human that I can't get contented with what I have. I can't change a person, I also can't be changed by a person, but I believe that a person can influence me through motivation and other sorts of things. Maybe I'm trying too hard to demand things from him that he can't give, and I'm overlooking the best sacrifice any man could give a woman.. Time and health. He's sacrificing everything just to hear me rant? It was really my fault after all, I'm not seeing those little things he's doing, I kept on asking concrete manifestations... I forgot that "What is essential is invisible to the eye" and for that.. I'm really sorry for being a pathetic loser...
I just want to ba happy with him.. I want him to be happy with me... How lame it was for me to think that in every story lies a happily ever after ending, but it can be done through constant understanding I guess... Love is not about thinking of oneself but about thinking of the welfare of the other.. It's supposed to be pushing up the person you love, encouraging him to become better, not to pull him down. I've been pulling him down all these times, and I think I need to make it up to him while he still gives me the chance. I want to prove that I can love someone, and I can still be loved back...
~('.'~)
listening to the melody of: Some jukebox song from the radio outside
feeling: Still a wee bit unstable
craving to eat: can I eat blood? I want to see/smell/taste blood for random reasons..
She wants to: Be happy with the one I love...
but she's stuck: being here, and him being far out there!!!
He said it would've ended if I haven't realized what I've done...
I felt excruciating pain, physically, mentally, emotionally...
I really thought I was going to die...
But I didn't, I can't~ because a tiny streak of hope appeared. I would've been dead at around 3am if it wasn't for a phonecall. I was bleeding and crying like hell that I couldn't see, speak, and think well.
It's always my fault: I never do anything right all along. It was my selfishness. I came to a conclusion that I might be loving too much that I've become greedy for him. I was giving out too much yet receive so little that it makes me frustrated and demanding. I'm full of insecureties that I don't see what I'm worth. I never see what I'm worth because I always think of myself as trash, that's how other people see me anyway. I want to have a place and purpose in this planet and I found it in him, but I guess it was my prejudices that hindered him from making me feel important. I was so scared to trust, to entrust, and to step out of this safe zone of mine. It was all my stupidity, I'm such a pathetic person.. I don't even know if I still deserve what I have right now...
Happiness: He's not happy with me and I can feel that, who would be happy with me anyway? He deserves to be happy, and I can perfectly understand if he wants to leave, even though it hurts me badly. I'm not capable of making him happy anymore because I'm too concerned of my demands that I began to choke him. I want him to be happy, but it hurts me to see him happy with someone else, because then again, I'm insecure because I can't make him happy like everyone else does. I don't know what to do anymore...
Love: Yet he chose to stick with me, for 4years he endured me. I can't understand how it works but he was there, he never left. He almost left me now, but I was so desperate for him not to leave that I pleaded. Maybe I should've just let him go? If you really love a person you can let him go. Love is patient, love is kind, it doesn't envy and own. and I've violated all those, so does it mean that I don't love him? When I asked him he told me "no, not just because you don't do by the definition of love means you don't love me. I'm not that shallow". I've been demanding a lot of things from him that I failed to see the little things that he's done. I was really very scared when he can't answer me when I asked if he still loves me. It was so painful that the wound on my pulse is nothing compared to the pain I'm feeling inside.
Death: the ultimate solution that I can think of, but on the other hand this is the ultimate thing that he hated the most. I couldn't think of anything else. I'm being selfish, I want to end the pain. I don't want to see myself inflicting pain to others. I could imagine that their life would all be better without me. Sure they'll grieve, but only for a short time, they'll learn to move on like other people do with their lives... that's how life goes, people come and go, I'll just be one of the many other people who came by their life.. and I'll be mighty proud to see that they're finally getting their share of happiness when I'm gone, because it is only I that hinders them from happiness.
I never know what I do that I deserve this, or maybe I'm just really hurting myself? maybe I'm slowly becoming a human that I can't get contented with what I have. I can't change a person, I also can't be changed by a person, but I believe that a person can influence me through motivation and other sorts of things. Maybe I'm trying too hard to demand things from him that he can't give, and I'm overlooking the best sacrifice any man could give a woman.. Time and health. He's sacrificing everything just to hear me rant? It was really my fault after all, I'm not seeing those little things he's doing, I kept on asking concrete manifestations... I forgot that "What is essential is invisible to the eye" and for that.. I'm really sorry for being a pathetic loser...
I just want to ba happy with him.. I want him to be happy with me... How lame it was for me to think that in every story lies a happily ever after ending, but it can be done through constant understanding I guess... Love is not about thinking of oneself but about thinking of the welfare of the other.. It's supposed to be pushing up the person you love, encouraging him to become better, not to pull him down. I've been pulling him down all these times, and I think I need to make it up to him while he still gives me the chance. I want to prove that I can love someone, and I can still be loved back...
~('.'~)
The Ghost is Lurking at: My Room, as always...
listening to the melody of: My CPU~ ahohoho
feeling: Lazy~
craving to eat: nothing as of the moment~
she wants to: get my laptop done!
but she's stuck: Waiting for almost a week to get it done O.o..
Okay~ I FINALLY BOUGHT A LAPTOP!! Last Sunday, we went to the mall to buy a laptop. I was really desperate to have one, so my dad felt a bit sorry, and he finally realized how important to me a laptop is, so he took the bait. xD
I dunno if this is good, but I asked the salespeople if they have a laptop with a dedicated video mem (So I can use them for gaming.. ahoho) and I was presented with a Lenovo Ideapad Y330.
Specs? a 2ghz Core2Duo processor, 2gb ram, 250harddisk, an ATI 256mb dedicated video card, 13.3", comes with a dvd-rw rom, bluetooth, wifi, and the likes.. Oh it also has a face recognition thingy, but I guess it only works if I use vista OS
What more can I ask for? It's small, it has the specs I need, it's also cute because of the tiny swirls design thingy, and it kinda matches my phone because it has some orangey touch xD
Then again, what more can I ask for??
The laptop didn't have an OS with it, so I'll have to scavenge for some OS so it could work. I want the laptop to work in XP (another reason why i bought it because it's not locked on vista!) But the OS given to me by my mom can't work in there. (home edition lang kasi) I was so excited since monday to go home and get my laptop done, but I can't seem to get it done. We went yesterday to the mall and I made a quick trip to Accent Micro (Where I bought it) and asked the tech guy of my problem. He told me that they can actually install an illegal OS (ahohohoho) if I really can't afford the original. So they're saying me they'll do the dirty job..
sheesh, I should've just brought it to them in the first place then. I was scared that they'd kill me if they knew I wasn't planning to put an original OS to my computer. Maybe if I buy an original OS I'll make it vista, for now I'll go do with XP.. xD~
what's the difference between XP and vista anyways? I'm just scared of vista because I don't know if the programs I'll be using are compatible with it. Besides, if I'm not mistaken vista eats a lot of memory. although I have 2gb ram, I was hoping it'll be enough for me to play games lag-free xD ahohohoho
So now as I grieve for being unable to get my laptop working I'm planning on what programs I should put.. ahohoho excited na talaga ako kung excited, this is my first laptop kasi~ xD
1. MS Office 07 - can't live without it
2. YM - another essential xD
3. A GOOD ANTIVIRUS!!!!!!
4. Photoshop - So I can doodle and explore around during free time
5. Final Note - I think that was the title of the music program I've used
6. Cabal - yay!~ Cabal lang ilalagay ko kasi ayoko maglagay ng hs5 or audi, nkakasira ng keyboard un.. ahohohoho~
7. some offline minigames to waste time on..
8. I saw a kewl offline dictionary widget thingy on my classmate's laptop... I want that too xD But I dunno what it's called.. >.< bummer
ahohohoho and of course, animes, music and pictures~
thinking about it gives me more frustrations.. I bought it last sunday pa, and I still can't use it.. my hands are itching to try it and use it.. then I'll see if I committed a mistake of buying it or not, but based on the specs, the only disadvantage is the battery life, it only has 2 usb ports on it, and the skin is a major fingerprint magnet.. I'll have to bring a handy cloth to wipe it up almost all the time.. wew, talk about OC~
well that's it~ I'm now silenced about the dilemma of buying a laptop.. ahohohoho.. wut next? a new phone perhaps? xD or maybe a desktop.. haha.. come to think of it, my laptop right now is waaay faster than my desktop. In terms of processor, memory, hardisk and videocard.. LoL ahohohoho.. I better leave now.. I'll be late for class, and I'm still coming all the way from home.. Goodluck naman! XD
listening to the melody of: My CPU~ ahohoho
feeling: Lazy~
craving to eat: nothing as of the moment~
she wants to: get my laptop done!
but she's stuck: Waiting for almost a week to get it done O.o..
Okay~ I FINALLY BOUGHT A LAPTOP!! Last Sunday, we went to the mall to buy a laptop. I was really desperate to have one, so my dad felt a bit sorry, and he finally realized how important to me a laptop is, so he took the bait. xD
I dunno if this is good, but I asked the salespeople if they have a laptop with a dedicated video mem (So I can use them for gaming.. ahoho) and I was presented with a Lenovo Ideapad Y330.
Specs? a 2ghz Core2Duo processor, 2gb ram, 250harddisk, an ATI 256mb dedicated video card, 13.3", comes with a dvd-rw rom, bluetooth, wifi, and the likes.. Oh it also has a face recognition thingy, but I guess it only works if I use vista OS
What more can I ask for? It's small, it has the specs I need, it's also cute because of the tiny swirls design thingy, and it kinda matches my phone because it has some orangey touch xD
Then again, what more can I ask for??
The laptop didn't have an OS with it, so I'll have to scavenge for some OS so it could work. I want the laptop to work in XP (another reason why i bought it because it's not locked on vista!) But the OS given to me by my mom can't work in there. (home edition lang kasi) I was so excited since monday to go home and get my laptop done, but I can't seem to get it done. We went yesterday to the mall and I made a quick trip to Accent Micro (Where I bought it) and asked the tech guy of my problem. He told me that they can actually install an illegal OS (ahohohoho) if I really can't afford the original. So they're saying me they'll do the dirty job..
sheesh, I should've just brought it to them in the first place then. I was scared that they'd kill me if they knew I wasn't planning to put an original OS to my computer. Maybe if I buy an original OS I'll make it vista, for now I'll go do with XP.. xD~
what's the difference between XP and vista anyways? I'm just scared of vista because I don't know if the programs I'll be using are compatible with it. Besides, if I'm not mistaken vista eats a lot of memory. although I have 2gb ram, I was hoping it'll be enough for me to play games lag-free xD ahohohoho
So now as I grieve for being unable to get my laptop working I'm planning on what programs I should put.. ahohoho excited na talaga ako kung excited, this is my first laptop kasi~ xD
1. MS Office 07 - can't live without it
2. YM - another essential xD
3. A GOOD ANTIVIRUS!!!!!!
4. Photoshop - So I can doodle and explore around during free time
5. Final Note - I think that was the title of the music program I've used
6. Cabal - yay!~ Cabal lang ilalagay ko kasi ayoko maglagay ng hs5 or audi, nkakasira ng keyboard un.. ahohohoho~
7. some offline minigames to waste time on..
8. I saw a kewl offline dictionary widget thingy on my classmate's laptop... I want that too xD But I dunno what it's called.. >.< bummer
ahohohoho and of course, animes, music and pictures~
thinking about it gives me more frustrations.. I bought it last sunday pa, and I still can't use it.. my hands are itching to try it and use it.. then I'll see if I committed a mistake of buying it or not, but based on the specs, the only disadvantage is the battery life, it only has 2 usb ports on it, and the skin is a major fingerprint magnet.. I'll have to bring a handy cloth to wipe it up almost all the time.. wew, talk about OC~
well that's it~ I'm now silenced about the dilemma of buying a laptop.. ahohohoho.. wut next? a new phone perhaps? xD or maybe a desktop.. haha.. come to think of it, my laptop right now is waaay faster than my desktop. In terms of processor, memory, hardisk and videocard.. LoL ahohohoho.. I better leave now.. I'll be late for class, and I'm still coming all the way from home.. Goodluck naman! XD
The Ghost is Lurking at: My Room, as always...
listening to the melody of: Green Despair BGM... ahohoho
feeling: Ill, not sick~
craving to eat: I'd rather be on dextrose now T_T than to eat and throw up afterward
she wants to: get better
but she's stuck: experiencing constant tummyaches, headache and fever~
I was dreading my Eng2 schoolwork. I'm not used to have a partner on writing projects because I find them pretty much distracting. She could edit my works, add or remove, juggle the ideas (because I know that I suck in organizing my thoughts). I just hope next time she'll actually help me write the paper by reading, paraphrasing and throwing out some ideas that we could use in our research. We only have 4 meetings off, in those four meetings (worth 6hrs total), we should have finished the survey, the notecards, bibliocards, and the whole manuscript itself. I don't want to repeat what happened last wednesday. Kinapalan ko na mukha ko para makihiram kay Ahlee ng laptop so I could type. Worst thing that happened was, the Word file crashed the exact moment I was done. I don't know how that happened. But the whole content of the file was deleted. The effort I've made for nearly 5hours was blank. I had to spend another 3 or more hours to recall and retype what I've written. that was my first time staying up late for school.
Thursday we went to the FebFair. I can finally party~ We ate, walked around, met a lot of people and made a quick trip to fertility tree! Finally, I was able to set foot on there and to the Gazebo behind it. There were actual couples dating there, but we didn't saw any extreme cases of PDA. Infaireness the place was romantic, especially at the Gazebo at that time because the big full moon was shining directly to it. we made a quick rest the Carillon and took ourselves back dorm (that's supposed to be back home, but we're at a dorm.. LoL) at around 10pm. I was so beat up from jumping and walking so I just did my nightly rituals and went off to bed.
I realized that I was chilling early morning, but I was stupid not to think of it as fever. I tossed and turned, and wrapped myself on a blanket to find comfort but it was a failure. I got down to do my morning rituals, feeling a little dizzy and declared that I'm sick only when I was on my way to my first class. I have no idea how it occured, but I believe in spirits and the supernatural, maybe I shook a being or two at the park during the fair. It was my first time stepping into that side afterall.
My fever is ususally high, it only went down for a few hours after drinking paracetamol. My mom and her friends went starbucks afterward and bought home a frap and cinnamon roll for me. I wasn't hungry, and I don't have the appetite but for the love of strawberries and starbucks, I drank the coffee and ate half of the bread. The next day my fever was accompanied by stomach pains and more trips to the restroom. I think I had diarrhea and was nearly dehydrating. My parents were worried that they want to take me to a doctor, but I told them I'm fine and I'll wait for my sister to take a look at me first. That was a good move, I told my sister all the things I've been experiencing, and after a few questions she concluded that I have Accute Gastro Enteritis or Impacho. Ahohohoh~
listening to the melody of: Green Despair BGM... ahohoho
feeling: Ill, not sick~
craving to eat: I'd rather be on dextrose now T_T than to eat and throw up afterward
she wants to: get better
but she's stuck: experiencing constant tummyaches, headache and fever~
I was dreading my Eng2 schoolwork. I'm not used to have a partner on writing projects because I find them pretty much distracting. She could edit my works, add or remove, juggle the ideas (because I know that I suck in organizing my thoughts). I just hope next time she'll actually help me write the paper by reading, paraphrasing and throwing out some ideas that we could use in our research. We only have 4 meetings off, in those four meetings (worth 6hrs total), we should have finished the survey, the notecards, bibliocards, and the whole manuscript itself. I don't want to repeat what happened last wednesday. Kinapalan ko na mukha ko para makihiram kay Ahlee ng laptop so I could type. Worst thing that happened was, the Word file crashed the exact moment I was done. I don't know how that happened. But the whole content of the file was deleted. The effort I've made for nearly 5hours was blank. I had to spend another 3 or more hours to recall and retype what I've written. that was my first time staying up late for school.
Thursday we went to the FebFair. I can finally party~ We ate, walked around, met a lot of people and made a quick trip to fertility tree! Finally, I was able to set foot on there and to the Gazebo behind it. There were actual couples dating there, but we didn't saw any extreme cases of PDA. Infaireness the place was romantic, especially at the Gazebo at that time because the big full moon was shining directly to it. we made a quick rest the Carillon and took ourselves back dorm (that's supposed to be back home, but we're at a dorm.. LoL) at around 10pm. I was so beat up from jumping and walking so I just did my nightly rituals and went off to bed.
I realized that I was chilling early morning, but I was stupid not to think of it as fever. I tossed and turned, and wrapped myself on a blanket to find comfort but it was a failure. I got down to do my morning rituals, feeling a little dizzy and declared that I'm sick only when I was on my way to my first class. I have no idea how it occured, but I believe in spirits and the supernatural, maybe I shook a being or two at the park during the fair. It was my first time stepping into that side afterall.
My fever is ususally high, it only went down for a few hours after drinking paracetamol. My mom and her friends went starbucks afterward and bought home a frap and cinnamon roll for me. I wasn't hungry, and I don't have the appetite but for the love of strawberries and starbucks, I drank the coffee and ate half of the bread. The next day my fever was accompanied by stomach pains and more trips to the restroom. I think I had diarrhea and was nearly dehydrating. My parents were worried that they want to take me to a doctor, but I told them I'm fine and I'll wait for my sister to take a look at me first. That was a good move, I told my sister all the things I've been experiencing, and after a few questions she concluded that I have Accute Gastro Enteritis or Impacho. Ahohohoh~
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: Blue-One Love (HS5 Mall BGM xD)
feeling: Tired but happy~
craving to eat: wala pa naman
She wants to: COSPLAY!!
but she's stuck: Penniless... *shakes her empty wallet*
W0oT~ Define fun? Maraming mishaps na nangyari pero it was worth the bad luck~ LoL I think this is going to be again, an ULP~ so prepare your popcorn, soda and eyes. xD
Then again, I'm too lazy to narrate a single day with lotsa events. LoL~ I guess I'll keep it a bit shorter than my usual posts.
After the con, I realized that I was wrong about cosplaying, it's not a scary world after all, I mean I thought people will just go about their own business but instead I found out that they're one big happy family. You get to meet cosplayers, photographers, fanboys and fangirls alike.
I'm definitely up for cosplaying now, especially that I realized that I don't have to spend much to get a decent costume. I'm slowly appreciating the existence of ukay-ukays. All I need is some perseverance and an accurate image of who I want to cosplay.
There was a big advantage in having a small-scale(?) convention, it creates a more home-y atmosphere and the bond is much closer, you really get to interact with every person unlike in large conventions. This was my first time seeing almost all cosplayers in one picture. They all seem to know each other so well for just a day, and it was so fun!
I met new people, experienced new things, and finally took a step outside my protective wall. The best part during the con was: Being myself. I didn't have to pretend. I shriek, jump, talk, walk, act as the real me. I wasn't hesitant to hide anything. I was the normal jolly(bee?) hyper me~ I never showed that to my usual classmates, they'll never understand. But here, I found my place.
Hala tama raw bang magdrama na? and I was supposed to keep this short!
haha sige na tama na nga!~ bottom line is: I enjoyed a lot and I'm hoping for more cons to come. I had new friends and yes, I'll definitely cosplay as soon as the first chance strikes xD
NYAOOOO ~('.'~) Omi~
listening to the melody of: Blue-One Love (HS5 Mall BGM xD)
feeling: Tired but happy~
craving to eat: wala pa naman
She wants to: COSPLAY!!
but she's stuck: Penniless... *shakes her empty wallet*
W0oT~ Define fun? Maraming mishaps na nangyari pero it was worth the bad luck~ LoL I think this is going to be again, an ULP~ so prepare your popcorn, soda and eyes. xD
Then again, I'm too lazy to narrate a single day with lotsa events. LoL~ I guess I'll keep it a bit shorter than my usual posts.
After the con, I realized that I was wrong about cosplaying, it's not a scary world after all, I mean I thought people will just go about their own business but instead I found out that they're one big happy family. You get to meet cosplayers, photographers, fanboys and fangirls alike.
I'm definitely up for cosplaying now, especially that I realized that I don't have to spend much to get a decent costume. I'm slowly appreciating the existence of ukay-ukays. All I need is some perseverance and an accurate image of who I want to cosplay.
There was a big advantage in having a small-scale(?) convention, it creates a more home-y atmosphere and the bond is much closer, you really get to interact with every person unlike in large conventions. This was my first time seeing almost all cosplayers in one picture. They all seem to know each other so well for just a day, and it was so fun!
I met new people, experienced new things, and finally took a step outside my protective wall. The best part during the con was: Being myself. I didn't have to pretend. I shriek, jump, talk, walk, act as the real me. I wasn't hesitant to hide anything. I was the normal jolly(bee?) hyper me~ I never showed that to my usual classmates, they'll never understand. But here, I found my place.
Hala tama raw bang magdrama na? and I was supposed to keep this short!
haha sige na tama na nga!~ bottom line is: I enjoyed a lot and I'm hoping for more cons to come. I had new friends and yes, I'll definitely cosplay as soon as the first chance strikes xD
NYAOOOO ~('.'~) Omi~
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: complete silence ^_^
feeling: bored and a little pissed off~
craving to eat: I had gyudon at RaiRaiKen~ Nao I WANTS STARBUCKS PLXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!
She wants to: Extend the vacation~
but she's stuck: Staring at her pile of schoolworks.. and doing nothing about it.. YAY
LoL... I was so hyped this vacation that I forgot to put some stuff here... hmm.. for those who didn't know, I had my birthday the 3rd week of dec (Oct 21 is my online birthday.. LoL) and I had two parties: One with Ahlee and Faith, and the other one with my family...
Honestly, I'm not used to celebrating birthdays. When I was young I was very excited every december because I'll receive two gifts. I was such a materialistic person back then (even now, only less) so I was just after the gifts. Even during christmas, I only thought of gifts, dolls, clothes, accessories.. food.. cute stuff (I rly liked cute stuff ever since I was small)
So right now, I feel a bit akward because I had a party. It's small though, but it was fun. Thanks to Faith for letting us use their pool, and Ahlee for the gifts. I've never received separate gifts for my christmas and birthday before~ and I appreciate it so much! I really feel so lucky to have those two girls for a friend, they're really one of a kind~ And I feel a little guilty because I usually depend on them, which is not good. >.< I wish I could repay them somehow... xD
That was only round one. I had another round of celebration a few days after I went home from the swimming party. My sister bought me a cake from red ribbon and my mom cooked some spaghetti. It was a normal day. I slept, played, ate and played more. I'm seriously not happy about celebrating birthdays. I remember people asking me "Where's the grand debut?" they think of our family is rich and would throw me a grandiose party? I think they could, IF I LET THEM THAT IS! WAHAHAHAHA!~ I'm not into parties or any social events. I just like to be in the company of a few yet very close people. I already told my mom that I won't be having a party. I'll just use the money to buy some gadgets, or fly abroad with my mom and sister, or maybe take a few close friends to the mall, or out of town, and that's it!
Okay enough of birthdays. I don't want to be constantly reminded that I'm getting old (gee self thanks for reminding!) there are other things I should be worrying about right now. And a big percentage of them goes to schoolworks
I can't believe that I only have 2 or 3 weeks for a Christmas vacation. Akala ko nga bitin pero now I seem to be slacking off again. T_T I'm supposed to bury my nose under some pile of academic and non-academic readings but I found myself getting highly addicted again to highstreet5, a dancing game. Siguro nag-crave din ako kasi hindi ako makalaro ng audition. Now that I found HS5, wee!~ With the kikai kyoudai complete there, my sister, and some other promising people, I become so addicted that I went back to my nocturnal moments again. I can't seem to stop playing even though I always find myself bored in game, but it's nice to see people being happy with their lives. It takes off the stress of real life, but the bad thing is~ I tend to escape real life. And also because of this game I became more lazy to help out in the house. I feel like a vampire because I wake late in the afternoon and sleep at dawn. My mom keeps on scolding me, but I think I'm pretty happy~
that wraps up my Holidays.. great!
listening to the melody of: complete silence ^_^
feeling: bored and a little pissed off~
craving to eat: I had gyudon at RaiRaiKen~ Nao I WANTS STARBUCKS PLXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!
She wants to: Extend the vacation~
but she's stuck: Staring at her pile of schoolworks.. and doing nothing about it.. YAY
LoL... I was so hyped this vacation that I forgot to put some stuff here... hmm.. for those who didn't know, I had my birthday the 3rd week of dec (Oct 21 is my online birthday.. LoL) and I had two parties: One with Ahlee and Faith, and the other one with my family...
Honestly, I'm not used to celebrating birthdays. When I was young I was very excited every december because I'll receive two gifts. I was such a materialistic person back then (even now, only less) so I was just after the gifts. Even during christmas, I only thought of gifts, dolls, clothes, accessories.. food.. cute stuff (I rly liked cute stuff ever since I was small)
So right now, I feel a bit akward because I had a party. It's small though, but it was fun. Thanks to Faith for letting us use their pool, and Ahlee for the gifts. I've never received separate gifts for my christmas and birthday before~ and I appreciate it so much! I really feel so lucky to have those two girls for a friend, they're really one of a kind~ And I feel a little guilty because I usually depend on them, which is not good. >.< I wish I could repay them somehow... xD
That was only round one. I had another round of celebration a few days after I went home from the swimming party. My sister bought me a cake from red ribbon and my mom cooked some spaghetti. It was a normal day. I slept, played, ate and played more. I'm seriously not happy about celebrating birthdays. I remember people asking me "Where's the grand debut?" they think of our family is rich and would throw me a grandiose party? I think they could, IF I LET THEM THAT IS! WAHAHAHAHA!~ I'm not into parties or any social events. I just like to be in the company of a few yet very close people. I already told my mom that I won't be having a party. I'll just use the money to buy some gadgets, or fly abroad with my mom and sister, or maybe take a few close friends to the mall, or out of town, and that's it!
Okay enough of birthdays. I don't want to be constantly reminded that I'm getting old (gee self thanks for reminding!) there are other things I should be worrying about right now. And a big percentage of them goes to schoolworks
I can't believe that I only have 2 or 3 weeks for a Christmas vacation. Akala ko nga bitin pero now I seem to be slacking off again. T_T I'm supposed to bury my nose under some pile of academic and non-academic readings but I found myself getting highly addicted again to highstreet5, a dancing game. Siguro nag-crave din ako kasi hindi ako makalaro ng audition. Now that I found HS5, wee!~ With the kikai kyoudai complete there, my sister, and some other promising people, I become so addicted that I went back to my nocturnal moments again. I can't seem to stop playing even though I always find myself bored in game, but it's nice to see people being happy with their lives. It takes off the stress of real life, but the bad thing is~ I tend to escape real life. And also because of this game I became more lazy to help out in the house. I feel like a vampire because I wake late in the afternoon and sleep at dawn. My mom keeps on scolding me, but I think I'm pretty happy~
that wraps up my Holidays.. great!
Ohaii ppL~ This isn't my usual all-about-me post xD (I admit that I'm pretty self-centered in my blog posts) and yeah, despite of my long absence from posting here.. I go poofing back with a major problem~
BUYING A LAPTOP~
Yes~ Here I go again with my indecisiveness.. I'm too tired and too noob to browse around for a laptop with good specs and a reasonable price. I was about to purchase a notebook but I realized that it would also be useless because I can only use it to type. I want to buy a small laptop (not a notebook okay, just a small laptop) That can handle my typing and a little bit of gaming needs as well. As much as possible my budget only stretches to.. uhm.. I don't know, but I think 40k or less will be enough? T_T and I want some reliable brands (meaning: No Neo.. LoL sry Neo!) that could last a clumsy owner for the duration of her college life~ I'm torn between dozens of choices and my sister told me I could buy a good laptop in just below 30k~ I doubt how long it would last though (esp. in a clumsy owner like me.. LoL)
So if you guys have any suggestions, please let me know~ I need small handy laptop that I could bring to school for acads and gaming purposes~ (like hs5 and cabal LoL) xD xD
Thanks~ xD xD
BUYING A LAPTOP~
Yes~ Here I go again with my indecisiveness.. I'm too tired and too noob to browse around for a laptop with good specs and a reasonable price. I was about to purchase a notebook but I realized that it would also be useless because I can only use it to type. I want to buy a small laptop (not a notebook okay, just a small laptop) That can handle my typing and a little bit of gaming needs as well. As much as possible my budget only stretches to.. uhm.. I don't know, but I think 40k or less will be enough? T_T and I want some reliable brands (meaning: No Neo.. LoL sry Neo!) that could last a clumsy owner for the duration of her college life~ I'm torn between dozens of choices and my sister told me I could buy a good laptop in just below 30k~ I doubt how long it would last though (esp. in a clumsy owner like me.. LoL)
So if you guys have any suggestions, please let me know~ I need small handy laptop that I could bring to school for acads and gaming purposes~ (like hs5 and cabal LoL) xD xD
Thanks~ xD xD
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: Nothing.. just the electric fan and the sound of keyboard typing.
feeling: Tired and stressed, not to mention depressed.
craving to eat: some beef thingy from teriyaki boy (I forgot what it's called)
She wants to: be happy!
but she's stuck: doing schoolworks, yay me T_T
Talk about a tough week~ After all that happy escapade thingy everything went upside down T_T There are really times when you run out of luck I suppose. It's just one of those bad days, but it happened consecutively.
MONDAY:
I was able to arrive in school a little early to get my handout at Coop. I rushed there only to find out that there's none. The other copy center was at Star, it was too far, and I'm running late. It was my first time to step inside the Bahay ng Pahinungod. Poor me, I'm not that much of an outdoor person. I recognized several faces of my classmates. After some cramming for homework and blabbering our instructor finally lead us upstairs for a discussion. He split us into two groups. It was fun having a small class in NSTP, it's more personalized, although not necessarily more fun. xD after some discussion we were again relocated to the VetMed auditorium. It was located in the almost outskirts of the campus, but I think the campus itself is in the outskirts of the city, near the mountain. xD LoL~ I made a little joke about the glass door. the glass was broken and I was the first to step in, I acted like I bumped in the glass so they were shocked. I could see their careful steps as they approached the entrance. They thought I seriously bumped on the glass door. haha! After the long discussion and group meeting we were required to watch a movie entitled Mulanay. It was darn cold inside the EE audi. I instantly caught runny nose. The movie ended at 7pm. So I had my CWTS from 1-7pm, equivalent to two meetings. nice...
TUESDAY:
The dreaded PE1 presentation is on! I really feel guilty for not being able to help out. I did throw out some ideas during the brainstorming, but I still feel guilty. Maybe I'll try to get back by exerting effort during the report. ^_^ Afterwards we had a library meeting in ENG2. We discussed about our concept paper and was given the time to research afterwards. I stumbled upon Aly and we went outside to get some lecture, food and rugs. XD unfortunately all I needed wasn't available. I feel sorry for Aly because I wasted her precious time. after my classes me and Aly again ate dinner. We had a little chat that lasted from 7pm-10pm. We didn't realize the time. We talked about many things and learned we have so much in common. I think she's also decided to join SOMA in case.. I'm also decided, but I'm having doubts about the commitment XD I called Loki before going to sleep using that 20pesos/20min call in globe but to my dismay, the call was cut on the first 2mins, he lost battery life.. sux2bhim T_T
WEDNESDAY:
The climax of my week. I've been bugging Aly(again) to come with me to an audition. It was the only audition I knew that required singers. I'm not much of an actress so I gave it a shot. After my class, I went straight back to my room to rest. I fell asleep and awoke around 3pm. I went to room 218. Faith and I chatted for a while then Aly arrived. We were both hesitant to go, but since Faith cheered us on, we went there. Its only a short audition I thought. There's nothing much to lose to partake here anyway.
We went to shapers after that, and looked around for some clothes while having last minute decisions. Friends and significant others weren't allowed, so only me and Ahlee decided to register for the auditions. It only took a few minutes after instructions were given: There was a dance workshop where every dancer is required to join, others can also participate, but the dance workshop served as the test to see who fits the dancing roles. We participated in that activity, because the dance instructor told everyone of us to do so. I was fine with dancing, but after I saw the moves I made a loud gulp~ we were asked to roll over, lie on the floor, turn. slide, whatsoever... Some kind of contemporary interpretative dance I presume. I did what I could to follow the steps but I'm not just a graceful dancer. After an hour or more of dancing, we were given a waterbreak. I was there to sing not to dance~ as 5mins passed they started out the auditions for singing and acting.
And I thought my pain was over. We were asked to prepare two songs. I actually came unprepared so I browsed through my phone to look for some promising songs, all I found was rock music, and based from my observations, they were looking for broadway qualities. This definitely not my thing, but I realized it too late, I've waited for more than an hour already, it was so late, and I'm the next one to present. I just told them some unwanted facts about me and continued singing. I admit I was hell nervous back then. I just couldn't feel them so it was for common good that they stopped me in the middle of the verse. I scanned my notes and played some PSP games while waiting for ahlee to finish. I wasn't able to hear how she did. The moment she was done, it was already past 10. We thought that chowking was closed so we went to ministop, but as I looked across I saw lights and people coming from chowking, so we crossed the road to buy some take out which took a pretty while to be done. We rode a jeep back to the dorm. I felt a little guilty for ruining Faith's peaceful slumber, causing her migraine T_T me and Aly ate our super late dinner, filled Faith with the details of the audition, and slept.
Or so I think... I went to my room and got my keys, placed it in the keyhole and turned. I was so excited to take a shower and sleep but instead of a clicking sound from the inside, I heard a quick SNAP!
My key just broke into two.
How the *bleep* can that happen? I was so tired and the last thing I ever want to happen was this?! I rushed back to room 218 to tell them what happened. We ran down to check if anyone was awake, but it was already past 11. the office was closed. I have no choice. I tried to turn the knob but it won't budge. Faith told me a passageway to the windows, and Aly went there to check if our windows were open. For once I'd like to be angry for locking those windows. I gave up, I can't get in. I'm stuck outside till morning.
THURSDAY:
I stayed in room 218, thanks to their kindness and hospitality I was able to freshen up and sleep, although it's not entirely a blissful sleep. I woke up at 6 to see if the office is open. They say it opens 7:30, so I rested again and found myself opening my eyes at exactly 7:30. I went out of the room, and I can hear furious voices of my roommates. I feel like melting in shame and guilt. Thank God they went home during the morning, I don't know if they could ever forgive me if they found out in the wee hours of the morning that their sanctuary was locked, and they couldn't get in even they had a key. I was really sorry but I couldn't muster up the courage to talk to them at such a bad time. I let them rest, and left for my first eng2 quiz which was so hard. afterwards I had my normal routine of classes, shoving off the feeling of bad luck as I go through the day.
I was dismissed early in my Eng1 class because of the brown out. Lucky me that Aly was still at the dorm so I could inform her the news. That would save her from going to and from the Phisci bldg. We watched a few movies, and went to my math class afterwards. They used a generator for the lights and mic, but since there wasn't a powerpoint presentation, our prof gave a sermon about bringing handouts especially in times like such. I can sense that he looked at my direction with flaming eyes because I was holding a psp, and I didn't raise my hand when he asked for those who had handouts. Then again to his shock as he started his lesson I took out my handout and kept my psp and earphones. I'm not longing for any recognition, but at least I was able to prove him that I'm not an irresponsible student.
FRIDAY:
Well this gets to be one of the least tiring days this week. Classes were fine, our so-called math2 christmas party was not much of a party for me though. I decided to go home late because I need to get some references in the library, then again the books weren't in proper order, and I'm not yet that expert to rummage through those shelves of books. I decided the power of internet and ebooks so I dragged faith back at the dorm. I was a little shy that she offered a ride home but she insisted. We made a quick stop to their cute resort and drove our way through the national highway. It was around 7pm when I arrived at Pacita. Mom told me about the Rico Blanco Concert at school to be held saturady! Finally! Something good, I hope..
So I'm wishing that Saturday will be my day, despite the fact that I have to finish tons of schoolworks before vacation. I can probably do it with cramming. haha~
Told you it's an uber long post.. I really had one heck of a week T_T
and it's days before the dreaded events in my life are going to happen~ NOOO!!! xD
~('.'~)
listening to the melody of: Nothing.. just the electric fan and the sound of keyboard typing.
feeling: Tired and stressed, not to mention depressed.
craving to eat: some beef thingy from teriyaki boy (I forgot what it's called)
She wants to: be happy!
but she's stuck: doing schoolworks, yay me T_T
Talk about a tough week~ After all that happy escapade thingy everything went upside down T_T There are really times when you run out of luck I suppose. It's just one of those bad days, but it happened consecutively.
MONDAY:
I was able to arrive in school a little early to get my handout at Coop. I rushed there only to find out that there's none. The other copy center was at Star, it was too far, and I'm running late. It was my first time to step inside the Bahay ng Pahinungod. Poor me, I'm not that much of an outdoor person. I recognized several faces of my classmates. After some cramming for homework and blabbering our instructor finally lead us upstairs for a discussion. He split us into two groups. It was fun having a small class in NSTP, it's more personalized, although not necessarily more fun. xD after some discussion we were again relocated to the VetMed auditorium. It was located in the almost outskirts of the campus, but I think the campus itself is in the outskirts of the city, near the mountain. xD LoL~ I made a little joke about the glass door. the glass was broken and I was the first to step in, I acted like I bumped in the glass so they were shocked. I could see their careful steps as they approached the entrance. They thought I seriously bumped on the glass door. haha! After the long discussion and group meeting we were required to watch a movie entitled Mulanay. It was darn cold inside the EE audi. I instantly caught runny nose. The movie ended at 7pm. So I had my CWTS from 1-7pm, equivalent to two meetings. nice...
TUESDAY:
The dreaded PE1 presentation is on! I really feel guilty for not being able to help out. I did throw out some ideas during the brainstorming, but I still feel guilty. Maybe I'll try to get back by exerting effort during the report. ^_^ Afterwards we had a library meeting in ENG2. We discussed about our concept paper and was given the time to research afterwards. I stumbled upon Aly and we went outside to get some lecture, food and rugs. XD unfortunately all I needed wasn't available. I feel sorry for Aly because I wasted her precious time. after my classes me and Aly again ate dinner. We had a little chat that lasted from 7pm-10pm. We didn't realize the time. We talked about many things and learned we have so much in common. I think she's also decided to join SOMA in case.. I'm also decided, but I'm having doubts about the commitment XD I called Loki before going to sleep using that 20pesos/20min call in globe but to my dismay, the call was cut on the first 2mins, he lost battery life.. sux2bhim T_T
WEDNESDAY:
The climax of my week. I've been bugging Aly(again) to come with me to an audition. It was the only audition I knew that required singers. I'm not much of an actress so I gave it a shot. After my class, I went straight back to my room to rest. I fell asleep and awoke around 3pm. I went to room 218. Faith and I chatted for a while then Aly arrived. We were both hesitant to go, but since Faith cheered us on, we went there. Its only a short audition I thought. There's nothing much to lose to partake here anyway.
We went to shapers after that, and looked around for some clothes while having last minute decisions. Friends and significant others weren't allowed, so only me and Ahlee decided to register for the auditions. It only took a few minutes after instructions were given: There was a dance workshop where every dancer is required to join, others can also participate, but the dance workshop served as the test to see who fits the dancing roles. We participated in that activity, because the dance instructor told everyone of us to do so. I was fine with dancing, but after I saw the moves I made a loud gulp~ we were asked to roll over, lie on the floor, turn. slide, whatsoever... Some kind of contemporary interpretative dance I presume. I did what I could to follow the steps but I'm not just a graceful dancer. After an hour or more of dancing, we were given a waterbreak. I was there to sing not to dance~ as 5mins passed they started out the auditions for singing and acting.
And I thought my pain was over. We were asked to prepare two songs. I actually came unprepared so I browsed through my phone to look for some promising songs, all I found was rock music, and based from my observations, they were looking for broadway qualities. This definitely not my thing, but I realized it too late, I've waited for more than an hour already, it was so late, and I'm the next one to present. I just told them some unwanted facts about me and continued singing. I admit I was hell nervous back then. I just couldn't feel them so it was for common good that they stopped me in the middle of the verse. I scanned my notes and played some PSP games while waiting for ahlee to finish. I wasn't able to hear how she did. The moment she was done, it was already past 10. We thought that chowking was closed so we went to ministop, but as I looked across I saw lights and people coming from chowking, so we crossed the road to buy some take out which took a pretty while to be done. We rode a jeep back to the dorm. I felt a little guilty for ruining Faith's peaceful slumber, causing her migraine T_T me and Aly ate our super late dinner, filled Faith with the details of the audition, and slept.
Or so I think... I went to my room and got my keys, placed it in the keyhole and turned. I was so excited to take a shower and sleep but instead of a clicking sound from the inside, I heard a quick SNAP!
My key just broke into two.
How the *bleep* can that happen? I was so tired and the last thing I ever want to happen was this?! I rushed back to room 218 to tell them what happened. We ran down to check if anyone was awake, but it was already past 11. the office was closed. I have no choice. I tried to turn the knob but it won't budge. Faith told me a passageway to the windows, and Aly went there to check if our windows were open. For once I'd like to be angry for locking those windows. I gave up, I can't get in. I'm stuck outside till morning.
THURSDAY:
I stayed in room 218, thanks to their kindness and hospitality I was able to freshen up and sleep, although it's not entirely a blissful sleep. I woke up at 6 to see if the office is open. They say it opens 7:30, so I rested again and found myself opening my eyes at exactly 7:30. I went out of the room, and I can hear furious voices of my roommates. I feel like melting in shame and guilt. Thank God they went home during the morning, I don't know if they could ever forgive me if they found out in the wee hours of the morning that their sanctuary was locked, and they couldn't get in even they had a key. I was really sorry but I couldn't muster up the courage to talk to them at such a bad time. I let them rest, and left for my first eng2 quiz which was so hard. afterwards I had my normal routine of classes, shoving off the feeling of bad luck as I go through the day.
I was dismissed early in my Eng1 class because of the brown out. Lucky me that Aly was still at the dorm so I could inform her the news. That would save her from going to and from the Phisci bldg. We watched a few movies, and went to my math class afterwards. They used a generator for the lights and mic, but since there wasn't a powerpoint presentation, our prof gave a sermon about bringing handouts especially in times like such. I can sense that he looked at my direction with flaming eyes because I was holding a psp, and I didn't raise my hand when he asked for those who had handouts. Then again to his shock as he started his lesson I took out my handout and kept my psp and earphones. I'm not longing for any recognition, but at least I was able to prove him that I'm not an irresponsible student.
FRIDAY:
Well this gets to be one of the least tiring days this week. Classes were fine, our so-called math2 christmas party was not much of a party for me though. I decided to go home late because I need to get some references in the library, then again the books weren't in proper order, and I'm not yet that expert to rummage through those shelves of books. I decided the power of internet and ebooks so I dragged faith back at the dorm. I was a little shy that she offered a ride home but she insisted. We made a quick stop to their cute resort and drove our way through the national highway. It was around 7pm when I arrived at Pacita. Mom told me about the Rico Blanco Concert at school to be held saturady! Finally! Something good, I hope..
So I'm wishing that Saturday will be my day, despite the fact that I have to finish tons of schoolworks before vacation. I can probably do it with cramming. haha~
Told you it's an uber long post.. I really had one heck of a week T_T
and it's days before the dreaded events in my life are going to happen~ NOOO!!! xD
~('.'~)
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: Haitoku no Jounetsu - High and Mighty Color
feeling: Happy and a little panic-y
craving to eat: I finally bought S'mores~ I have no cravings at the moment xD
She wants to: Go shopping again T_T
but she's stuck: Saving up money for her christmas shopping T_T
I feel so alive!!!!
It's been ages since I went out a "group" escapade such as this. It's a completely different experience than going out with just a bunch of girlfriends, a mixed group is definitely the best way to kill time. LoL~
Ahlee and Faith told me yesterday about Kyle and Naldo going to visit them. I tagged along. xD We went to SM Muntinlupa today, we did almost anything out of pure fun! Kyle was persuading us to watch Twilight (again), but gave up in the end. It was too bad the picture size I took was small~ We had some hillarious and random snapshots at the mall.
Afterwards my stomach was already grumbling so we went to Mcdo for some food. No one ever ran out of funny things to tell, and as usual our victim is always Kyle~ (peace kyle, you know we do this out of love.. LoL!) Oh btw thanks for the Apple pie kyle! XD
We reminisced our highschool days, the good old days. I felt old upon recalling those events, but what can I do? Time flies, I can't stay young forever. I have to be mature. But how?? These were just some of my random thoughts during those times. It was true that we're so noisy, but I didn't think we did any harm. Especially at national bookstore. Kyle and Naldo kept commenting on books, green comments x.X we were all laughing, good thing no one forced us out. maybe there were already planning to, but we got ahead of them.
After that we went karaoke-ing just of pure trip. I haven't sang in the mall for ages. We didn't care if people were staring at us from the outside, we were partying like wild animals. I think we're gonna be voiceless for the next few days, all that screaming and singing got my voice box all worked out.
We ran out of energy after the karaoke thing, so we took a seat in the food court to chat, again the highschool days, some nerd physics thingies and college stuff. It was around 6pm when Faith decided to go, but I halted her by saying that I'll go window shopping. She quickly delayed her leave. Kyle and Naldo commented on my statement, and it seemed like hell for them. We girls laughed, it was our time.
I felt sorry for Kyle and Naldo, having to go through a series of window shopping spree with three girls. After Faith went to her stop she finally took her leave, I kind of dragged Ahlee into a store I like. I bought another pants xD xD me and my impulse buying. The two boys went to get something to eat while I was trying out, I was kind of shy on Ahlee because I was asking for her opinions. Finally after much consideration. I bought it and we accompanied Ahlee home.
Such a short day for me, but I actually feel nice about having to step out of the house and do other stuff. Trying new is definitely the way to learn, but I'm just too scared to step out of my protected world alone.. oh wells, there goes our escapade~!
As for schoolworks, I forgot to get a handout of our readings~ omg!!! stupid CWTS!! It was a good thing my mom decided to drop me to school hours early, I could still run and get a copy. whew~ xD I hope my subjects this sem are a bit easier. T_T if not I'll totally die
that's it for now.. I'm pretty tired writing stuff >.< kruu~~
~('.'~) Omi~
listening to the melody of: Haitoku no Jounetsu - High and Mighty Color
feeling: Happy and a little panic-y
craving to eat: I finally bought S'mores~ I have no cravings at the moment xD
She wants to: Go shopping again T_T
but she's stuck: Saving up money for her christmas shopping T_T
I feel so alive!!!!
It's been ages since I went out a "group" escapade such as this. It's a completely different experience than going out with just a bunch of girlfriends, a mixed group is definitely the best way to kill time. LoL~
Ahlee and Faith told me yesterday about Kyle and Naldo going to visit them. I tagged along. xD We went to SM Muntinlupa today, we did almost anything out of pure fun! Kyle was persuading us to watch Twilight (again), but gave up in the end. It was too bad the picture size I took was small~ We had some hillarious and random snapshots at the mall.
Afterwards my stomach was already grumbling so we went to Mcdo for some food. No one ever ran out of funny things to tell, and as usual our victim is always Kyle~ (peace kyle, you know we do this out of love.. LoL!) Oh btw thanks for the Apple pie kyle! XD
We reminisced our highschool days, the good old days. I felt old upon recalling those events, but what can I do? Time flies, I can't stay young forever. I have to be mature. But how?? These were just some of my random thoughts during those times. It was true that we're so noisy, but I didn't think we did any harm. Especially at national bookstore. Kyle and Naldo kept commenting on books, green comments x.X we were all laughing, good thing no one forced us out. maybe there were already planning to, but we got ahead of them.
After that we went karaoke-ing just of pure trip. I haven't sang in the mall for ages. We didn't care if people were staring at us from the outside, we were partying like wild animals. I think we're gonna be voiceless for the next few days, all that screaming and singing got my voice box all worked out.
We ran out of energy after the karaoke thing, so we took a seat in the food court to chat, again the highschool days, some nerd physics thingies and college stuff. It was around 6pm when Faith decided to go, but I halted her by saying that I'll go window shopping. She quickly delayed her leave. Kyle and Naldo commented on my statement, and it seemed like hell for them. We girls laughed, it was our time.
I felt sorry for Kyle and Naldo, having to go through a series of window shopping spree with three girls. After Faith went to her stop she finally took her leave, I kind of dragged Ahlee into a store I like. I bought another pants xD xD me and my impulse buying. The two boys went to get something to eat while I was trying out, I was kind of shy on Ahlee because I was asking for her opinions. Finally after much consideration. I bought it and we accompanied Ahlee home.
Such a short day for me, but I actually feel nice about having to step out of the house and do other stuff. Trying new is definitely the way to learn, but I'm just too scared to step out of my protected world alone.. oh wells, there goes our escapade~!
As for schoolworks, I forgot to get a handout of our readings~ omg!!! stupid CWTS!! It was a good thing my mom decided to drop me to school hours early, I could still run and get a copy. whew~ xD I hope my subjects this sem are a bit easier. T_T if not I'll totally die
that's it for now.. I'm pretty tired writing stuff >.< kruu~~
~('.'~) Omi~
I decided to make a dream diary out of plain boredom.. I mean, because I've been dreaming a lot, and it's bothering me.. I'll keep a neat record of my dreams here from now on.. XD XD and since I want to keep them all in one place, I'll just edit this entry and put this in my favorites~
Okay 'nuff said.. on to teh dreams!!~
Dec. 4, 2008 (Thursday) 5:12am
And there I stood in my dorm, my roommates are all gone. I was up for a walk, and so I wore a jacket and headed out. The place looked like elbi and CSA combined, with some resemblance to my old school Matter; the place was surrounded by a wall with a large gate leading to the highway, the grounds was purely cement, they have a nice "freedom park" field, the buildings were connected like CSA, and of course, a statue of Oblation at the middle of the buildings.
(When I think of it, the so-called "school" appeared to me in a dream long ago... and it also resembled a dream I had years ago, which came true the moment I stepped in college.. weird!)
I walked around the campus and stopped at the nearby fountain leading to the field. Classes had just ended, and people were all over the place. I continued to wander as I saw a striking figure, A tall, slender man in white walking towards the fountain. I somehow recognized him and called his name out loud "NAKATSU!!!!"
Nakatsu turned and welcomed me with both arms. I was so happy to see him, and I think he felt the same. He hugged me tightly and started babbling about each other's lives. He sudenly lifted me effortlessly to match his height and began turning, as if we were dancing. He never let go of his arms around me. We went to places we can call our own but the school was just too crowded. he finally dragged me in some room with a mirror (mirror room lol?) and stayed on a corner. He tightened his grip around me and murmured some words I couldn't comprehend, but to the sound of it, it felt sweet and heartwarming. I was so overwhelmed.
I asked him if we could take pictures together. He game me a warm smile and took his phone. I did the same, and we started taking random snapshots. After the small picture-taking, we stepped out of the room. I can feel that people were staring at us as if we were a couple PDA-ing in the campus; nevertheless, I was happy.
We were walking back to the fountain, he stopped at the opening of the field and gave me a parting look. He held my face and looked deeply in my eyes. He said he had to visit a certain someone, and will be back before long. I don't want to part with him, not now that I found my happiness. I insisted on going with him. He agreed, but told me that we'd have to race across the field in order to catch the certain someone in action.
I was puzzled by his catch, but I accepted it and dashed across. Of course the race was long over before it even started, he was almost a minute ahead of me. When I arrived I saw a whole platoon about to be dismissed by the officers. So much for that certain someone... I gave out a laugh inside my head. I knew these people, I was once like them, I can relate. Nakatsu talked to some officers while I reminisced with other cadets and NCOs. I was happy to be reunited with all the people I missed, but I felt uncomfortable after a while of being away with Nakatsu. I turned my head to search for him, and I found him staring back at me, with again those parting eyes. I hurried toward him for an embrace, he did so tightly, and told me to go. I was about to say a reason to stay, but the bell rang. I was ironically saved by the bell. He released me and told me he'll come back. I said that he'd better promise me that, because I can't find anything or anyone else that would make me happy the way he does. I gave him a last look, he closed his eyes to contain whatever's inside and placed his hands on my shoulder. He turned and pushed me around. I made a few unwanted steps away from him, and when I glanced back, he was gone.
Ethics class was so boring, it happened to become an art class. I managed to pass time by flipping my phone to stare at our pictures once in a while. My classmates got curious about the guy on the phone. I reluctantly showed them, and they were awed, some shrieked and started bombarding me with questions like: "You know him?! You're going out with him? Does he even speak our language? How did he get to you without being noticed by the media? Wait is this really him, or just an impostor?" I was getting dizzy by their questions, but deep inside I feel happy and proud. I was about to shout to them that he was mine, but once again, I was ironically saved by the bell.
I walked past the fountain again, and saw a familiar person in one corner of the building walls, she was so tan yet I was still able to recognize her, a HS friend of mine. I called her out, and she and her friend looked at me. She instantly recognized me and began talking. Some people who also knew her gathered around to listen to her stories about her new University. How hard it is to gamble with danger everyday. I soon got tired and told her goodbye, I went back to my dorm.
As I opened the door, a college acquaintance of mine stood there. She greeted me as if we were long time friends, but I merely know her by name and face. I'm a very open person, so I answered her acad-related questions with ease. I was also very happy that day because of Nakatsu, so I really didn't mind. She's supposed to have graduated, so I asked her who brought her here and she muttered the name of my dear HS friend. She told me they had a car, so I peered out the window to look for her familiar car. Instead of an automobile, another person caught my attention; A senpai I knew back in highschool. I opened my jalousies to scream his name. He looked up, but missed my direction. I hurried out to meet him, I heard my college friend saying something like "If you need help, don't hesitate to approach me!" And then I was outside
I ran to where I know the senpai would be, but he and his friends were boarding a vehicle, so I couldn't take his attention. I tried to look for the car but no luck to that either. The sun was setting when someone Texted me about a practice in choir. I was never involved in a choir recently, but my senses were telling me that I should go, that they need me there, so I went there.
They were in the hallway near the fountain. They started the piece without me. Afraid to make a grand entrance, I silently creeped behind and peeked at the music sheet, then started blending myself in. As I sing, flashbacks of the moments with Nakatsu filled my mind. The way he looked into my eyes, the warm of his embrace, his voice, his smile, everything.
I was inlove with a man I've never seen before, or should I say doomed to never see in person...
I let my eyes wander in the dark cold night. That's where I saw him, seated on the fountain, his arms folded, looking straight at me. We were having some shared communication. I couldn't help it, I need to be with him again. As I stood up to reach him... My eyes opened.
Okay 'nuff said.. on to teh dreams!!~
Dec. 4, 2008 (Thursday) 5:12am
And there I stood in my dorm, my roommates are all gone. I was up for a walk, and so I wore a jacket and headed out. The place looked like elbi and CSA combined, with some resemblance to my old school Matter; the place was surrounded by a wall with a large gate leading to the highway, the grounds was purely cement, they have a nice "freedom park" field, the buildings were connected like CSA, and of course, a statue of Oblation at the middle of the buildings.
(When I think of it, the so-called "school" appeared to me in a dream long ago... and it also resembled a dream I had years ago, which came true the moment I stepped in college.. weird!)
I walked around the campus and stopped at the nearby fountain leading to the field. Classes had just ended, and people were all over the place. I continued to wander as I saw a striking figure, A tall, slender man in white walking towards the fountain. I somehow recognized him and called his name out loud "NAKATSU!!!!"
Nakatsu turned and welcomed me with both arms. I was so happy to see him, and I think he felt the same. He hugged me tightly and started babbling about each other's lives. He sudenly lifted me effortlessly to match his height and began turning, as if we were dancing. He never let go of his arms around me. We went to places we can call our own but the school was just too crowded. he finally dragged me in some room with a mirror (mirror room lol?) and stayed on a corner. He tightened his grip around me and murmured some words I couldn't comprehend, but to the sound of it, it felt sweet and heartwarming. I was so overwhelmed.
I asked him if we could take pictures together. He game me a warm smile and took his phone. I did the same, and we started taking random snapshots. After the small picture-taking, we stepped out of the room. I can feel that people were staring at us as if we were a couple PDA-ing in the campus; nevertheless, I was happy.
We were walking back to the fountain, he stopped at the opening of the field and gave me a parting look. He held my face and looked deeply in my eyes. He said he had to visit a certain someone, and will be back before long. I don't want to part with him, not now that I found my happiness. I insisted on going with him. He agreed, but told me that we'd have to race across the field in order to catch the certain someone in action.
I was puzzled by his catch, but I accepted it and dashed across. Of course the race was long over before it even started, he was almost a minute ahead of me. When I arrived I saw a whole platoon about to be dismissed by the officers. So much for that certain someone... I gave out a laugh inside my head. I knew these people, I was once like them, I can relate. Nakatsu talked to some officers while I reminisced with other cadets and NCOs. I was happy to be reunited with all the people I missed, but I felt uncomfortable after a while of being away with Nakatsu. I turned my head to search for him, and I found him staring back at me, with again those parting eyes. I hurried toward him for an embrace, he did so tightly, and told me to go. I was about to say a reason to stay, but the bell rang. I was ironically saved by the bell. He released me and told me he'll come back. I said that he'd better promise me that, because I can't find anything or anyone else that would make me happy the way he does. I gave him a last look, he closed his eyes to contain whatever's inside and placed his hands on my shoulder. He turned and pushed me around. I made a few unwanted steps away from him, and when I glanced back, he was gone.
Ethics class was so boring, it happened to become an art class. I managed to pass time by flipping my phone to stare at our pictures once in a while. My classmates got curious about the guy on the phone. I reluctantly showed them, and they were awed, some shrieked and started bombarding me with questions like: "You know him?! You're going out with him? Does he even speak our language? How did he get to you without being noticed by the media? Wait is this really him, or just an impostor?" I was getting dizzy by their questions, but deep inside I feel happy and proud. I was about to shout to them that he was mine, but once again, I was ironically saved by the bell.
I walked past the fountain again, and saw a familiar person in one corner of the building walls, she was so tan yet I was still able to recognize her, a HS friend of mine. I called her out, and she and her friend looked at me. She instantly recognized me and began talking. Some people who also knew her gathered around to listen to her stories about her new University. How hard it is to gamble with danger everyday. I soon got tired and told her goodbye, I went back to my dorm.
As I opened the door, a college acquaintance of mine stood there. She greeted me as if we were long time friends, but I merely know her by name and face. I'm a very open person, so I answered her acad-related questions with ease. I was also very happy that day because of Nakatsu, so I really didn't mind. She's supposed to have graduated, so I asked her who brought her here and she muttered the name of my dear HS friend. She told me they had a car, so I peered out the window to look for her familiar car. Instead of an automobile, another person caught my attention; A senpai I knew back in highschool. I opened my jalousies to scream his name. He looked up, but missed my direction. I hurried out to meet him, I heard my college friend saying something like "If you need help, don't hesitate to approach me!" And then I was outside
I ran to where I know the senpai would be, but he and his friends were boarding a vehicle, so I couldn't take his attention. I tried to look for the car but no luck to that either. The sun was setting when someone Texted me about a practice in choir. I was never involved in a choir recently, but my senses were telling me that I should go, that they need me there, so I went there.
They were in the hallway near the fountain. They started the piece without me. Afraid to make a grand entrance, I silently creeped behind and peeked at the music sheet, then started blending myself in. As I sing, flashbacks of the moments with Nakatsu filled my mind. The way he looked into my eyes, the warm of his embrace, his voice, his smile, everything.
I was inlove with a man I've never seen before, or should I say doomed to never see in person...
I let my eyes wander in the dark cold night. That's where I saw him, seated on the fountain, his arms folded, looking straight at me. We were having some shared communication. I couldn't help it, I need to be with him again. As I stood up to reach him... My eyes opened.
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: Poltergeist - Mayumi Kojima (Ghost Hound OP)
feeling: Great!!
craving to eat: S'mores!!
She wants to: Find a nice camera to get a snapshot of the moon
but she's stuck: Here T_T
OMG GUYS!! I dunno if it's still out there! Pero look at the moon~ It's so cute! Pramis~ It's literally smiling upon us.. LoL!~
Kung sino may matinong camera.. paki kuhaan naman ng pic oh~ xD I want to capture this cute coincidence.. xD yun lng
Today's story will be posted as a different entry~ All I care for as of this moment is the moon! LOLOLOL!!
listening to the melody of: Poltergeist - Mayumi Kojima (Ghost Hound OP)
feeling: Great!!
craving to eat: S'mores!!
She wants to: Find a nice camera to get a snapshot of the moon
but she's stuck: Here T_T
OMG GUYS!! I dunno if it's still out there! Pero look at the moon~ It's so cute! Pramis~ It's literally smiling upon us.. LoL!~
Kung sino may matinong camera.. paki kuhaan naman ng pic oh~ xD I want to capture this cute coincidence.. xD yun lng
Today's story will be posted as a different entry~ All I care for as of this moment is the moon! LOLOLOL!!
The Ghost is lurking at: My room
listening to the melody of: Suna no Oshiro - Kanon Wakeshima (Vampire Knight Guilty ED)
feeling: satisfied yet full of regret?
craving to eat: Pang-ilang linggo na akong nagcra-crave sa S'mores >.<
She wants to: See Loki~
but she's stuck: Cursing her PE1 classmates for arranging a meeting on a holiday. And she thought she could spend the monday at home >.<
Need to die? I was feeling so emo last friday. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.. paano nangyari pero nawala ung uber emo post ko... Alam ko tinapos ko yun pero hindi siya nagreflect d2 sa multiply. Wala rin siya sa drafts.. Paano, nung friday kasi, dapat may "date" kami ni Loki. I really thought I was dreaming thursday night when he called to ask me out. Pero dahil nabadtrip siya sakin. He decided not to go last minute nung friday. Nagmukha lang akong tanga. naghintay, umasa... Ang sakit kaya nun! Mas mabuti pang hindi niya na lang ako niyaya.. Nakakahiya nga eh. Umiyak ako sa harap nina Faith at Ahlee. Tapos umiiyak din ako dun sa jeep. Grabe. Asar talaga >.< Sayang ung moment eh. Dapat magkasama kami manood ng sine, first samin un. Hindi naman kasi kami nag-gagala. Pero hindi natuloy. Oh well. He's gonna pay double.. no make it a hundred times for hurting me like that. I was almost on the verge of suicide!~ and I'm not exaggerating. If you only knew the pain. I hate expecting. Nakakainis umasa.. Kasi kapag hindi naman natuloy, super devastated ka. Yun lang ung hirap sakin. Lalo na when it's about him. T_T The more I need him near me the more he goes away. X.x Sighh~~ Grabe nga eh nung friday na yun pag-uwi ko sa bahay naglock lng ako sa kwarto. Hindi nako lumabas.. ganun ako ka-emo.. Haha LoL! pero seriously. Nahiya na nga rin ako kay mama kasi I even got her worrying. I haven't eaten for almost a day nun T_T Loki got pretty guilty kaya he decided to talk to me friday midnight. After all the drama, we were able to compromise. Ganun lang naman eh. Sasabihin ko lang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. He's sorry, I'm sorry. tapos. Pero yun nga, I'll let him pay a hundred fold for what he'd done. I deserve a payback!!
On the bright side of life, the cancellation of out so-called date lead to a happy escapade with Rii! Nothing beats a girl's all day out when you're problematic about love and men. (Omg, I'm really becoming a girly girl? ew!) Pero kasi diba, if a guy hurts you, there's your best buds to the rescue. As usual, ang bisyo namin ni Riccel... Powerbooks, starbucks, movies, shopping. Haha~ ganun lang naman eh. Medyo nahihiya na nga ako sa mom niya kasi everytime na umaalis kami late na siya umuuwi. Wala na atang tiwala sakin ung nanay niya X.x Anyway.. Nanood kami ng Twilight!~ And as usual, movies are really cut short. >.< and speaking of cut, May3 scenes ata silang ni-cut! asaR!!! brrr~ Naiirita ako sa itsura ni Edward Cullen, mas gwapo pa si Carlisle eh! Anyway.. Nakakatawa ung diamond effect nila sa sunlight. OA pala ung inimagine ko. Akala ko talagang nagtotodo glitter sila as a large diamond, ganun lang pala. xD haha. All in all the movie was good. Pero iba parin ung "kilig factor" na nabigay sakin ng book kesa dun sa movie. Parang ni-rush kasi yung movie. Oh well, they have to compress it into 2hours naman kasi. >.<
After the movie me and Riccel met up with mom. Did more shopping, ate at red ribbon. PERO WALANG S'MORES~ actually meron, pero hindi siya kasama sa slice of the day T_T darn!~ nakakahiya naman kung mag-order pa ako ng separate diba, parang ang takaw ko na nun! Besides, I'm getting fat these days T_T sumisikip na ulet mga damit ko, pero ang ironic nga eh, kasi hindi naman ako masyado kumakain ng rice, or anything at all, pero tumataba ako.. eh?! >.<
Eka may isisingit ako!~ Grabeh! Nakita ko yung notebook of my dreams ko! Ung Sony na.. anu nga ba yun! Basta red siya, maliit na siya, kasing liit ng notebook pero may DVD writer/reader na. intel Core 2duo processor, 2gig mem. May built-in webcam. Tapos yun pala yung sinasabi ni Faith na may fingerprint sensor. I really don't need that. pero gusto ko yung style niya. Tsaka sony eh! I'm a sony person xD kaso when I told mom she bursted out~ nsa 86k kasi siya.. eh.. 20k lang ata budget ko.. Hindi pa yun sure... Iniisip ko kung anong maganda at matibay na brand, stylish, practical at siyempre, madaling iparepair. Ayoko ng neo. x.X wala lng.. gusto ko ung heavy duty na talaga.. Iniisp ko HP or compaq (tama ba spelling?) kaso it'll take me 30k ata..? then bibili na lang ako ng external DVD reader?? para sa anime.. lol xD haha then itong computer ko pang gaming na lang X.x pero I doubt kung kaya nito ang hardcore gaming.. I miss my old kamekichi T_T hayz
Ok that's just about it, tama na~.. Parang hindi connect ung blog title ko sa laman noh? Ayus lang yun! Sunday nanaman, monday bukas. Nakakatamad kasi parang wala akong masyadong ginagawa sa school. Okay.. I don't like to think about acads right now. I'll enjoy my homeworkless weekend by.. uhm. slacking off? XD lol!~ sige naaa
matta ne!!
~('.'~) Omi~
listening to the melody of: Suna no Oshiro - Kanon Wakeshima (Vampire Knight Guilty ED)
feeling: satisfied yet full of regret?
craving to eat: Pang-ilang linggo na akong nagcra-crave sa S'mores >.<
She wants to: See Loki~
but she's stuck: Cursing her PE1 classmates for arranging a meeting on a holiday. And she thought she could spend the monday at home >.<
Need to die? I was feeling so emo last friday. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.. paano nangyari pero nawala ung uber emo post ko... Alam ko tinapos ko yun pero hindi siya nagreflect d2 sa multiply. Wala rin siya sa drafts.. Paano, nung friday kasi, dapat may "date" kami ni Loki. I really thought I was dreaming thursday night when he called to ask me out. Pero dahil nabadtrip siya sakin. He decided not to go last minute nung friday. Nagmukha lang akong tanga. naghintay, umasa... Ang sakit kaya nun! Mas mabuti pang hindi niya na lang ako niyaya.. Nakakahiya nga eh. Umiyak ako sa harap nina Faith at Ahlee. Tapos umiiyak din ako dun sa jeep. Grabe. Asar talaga >.< Sayang ung moment eh. Dapat magkasama kami manood ng sine, first samin un. Hindi naman kasi kami nag-gagala. Pero hindi natuloy. Oh well. He's gonna pay double.. no make it a hundred times for hurting me like that. I was almost on the verge of suicide!~ and I'm not exaggerating. If you only knew the pain. I hate expecting. Nakakainis umasa.. Kasi kapag hindi naman natuloy, super devastated ka. Yun lang ung hirap sakin. Lalo na when it's about him. T_T The more I need him near me the more he goes away. X.x Sighh~~ Grabe nga eh nung friday na yun pag-uwi ko sa bahay naglock lng ako sa kwarto. Hindi nako lumabas.. ganun ako ka-emo.. Haha LoL! pero seriously. Nahiya na nga rin ako kay mama kasi I even got her worrying. I haven't eaten for almost a day nun T_T Loki got pretty guilty kaya he decided to talk to me friday midnight. After all the drama, we were able to compromise. Ganun lang naman eh. Sasabihin ko lang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. He's sorry, I'm sorry. tapos. Pero yun nga, I'll let him pay a hundred fold for what he'd done. I deserve a payback!!
On the bright side of life, the cancellation of out so-called date lead to a happy escapade with Rii! Nothing beats a girl's all day out when you're problematic about love and men. (Omg, I'm really becoming a girly girl? ew!) Pero kasi diba, if a guy hurts you, there's your best buds to the rescue. As usual, ang bisyo namin ni Riccel... Powerbooks, starbucks, movies, shopping. Haha~ ganun lang naman eh. Medyo nahihiya na nga ako sa mom niya kasi everytime na umaalis kami late na siya umuuwi. Wala na atang tiwala sakin ung nanay niya X.x Anyway.. Nanood kami ng Twilight!~ And as usual, movies are really cut short. >.< and speaking of cut, May3 scenes ata silang ni-cut! asaR!!! brrr~ Naiirita ako sa itsura ni Edward Cullen, mas gwapo pa si Carlisle eh! Anyway.. Nakakatawa ung diamond effect nila sa sunlight. OA pala ung inimagine ko. Akala ko talagang nagtotodo glitter sila as a large diamond, ganun lang pala. xD haha. All in all the movie was good. Pero iba parin ung "kilig factor" na nabigay sakin ng book kesa dun sa movie. Parang ni-rush kasi yung movie. Oh well, they have to compress it into 2hours naman kasi. >.<
After the movie me and Riccel met up with mom. Did more shopping, ate at red ribbon. PERO WALANG S'MORES~ actually meron, pero hindi siya kasama sa slice of the day T_T darn!~ nakakahiya naman kung mag-order pa ako ng separate diba, parang ang takaw ko na nun! Besides, I'm getting fat these days T_T sumisikip na ulet mga damit ko, pero ang ironic nga eh, kasi hindi naman ako masyado kumakain ng rice, or anything at all, pero tumataba ako.. eh?! >.<
Eka may isisingit ako!~ Grabeh! Nakita ko yung notebook of my dreams ko! Ung Sony na.. anu nga ba yun! Basta red siya, maliit na siya, kasing liit ng notebook pero may DVD writer/reader na. intel Core 2duo processor, 2gig mem. May built-in webcam. Tapos yun pala yung sinasabi ni Faith na may fingerprint sensor. I really don't need that. pero gusto ko yung style niya. Tsaka sony eh! I'm a sony person xD kaso when I told mom she bursted out~ nsa 86k kasi siya.. eh.. 20k lang ata budget ko.. Hindi pa yun sure... Iniisip ko kung anong maganda at matibay na brand, stylish, practical at siyempre, madaling iparepair. Ayoko ng neo. x.X wala lng.. gusto ko ung heavy duty na talaga.. Iniisp ko HP or compaq (tama ba spelling?) kaso it'll take me 30k ata..? then bibili na lang ako ng external DVD reader?? para sa anime.. lol xD haha then itong computer ko pang gaming na lang X.x pero I doubt kung kaya nito ang hardcore gaming.. I miss my old kamekichi T_T hayz
Ok that's just about it, tama na~.. Parang hindi connect ung blog title ko sa laman noh? Ayus lang yun! Sunday nanaman, monday bukas. Nakakatamad kasi parang wala akong masyadong ginagawa sa school. Okay.. I don't like to think about acads right now. I'll enjoy my homeworkless weekend by.. uhm. slacking off? XD lol!~ sige naaa
matta ne!!
~('.'~) Omi~
The Ghost is lurking at: My mom's room xD
listening to the melody of: River Flows in You aka Bella's Lullaby
feeling: still lazy.. and I'm still not happy with school~
craving to eat: I still haven't satisfied my craving for S'mores T_T
She wants to: talk to Loki~
but she's stuck: Thinking that she has to sleep early.. xD kailangan 7:30 makalayas nako sa San Pedro~
Yep~ I'm home again (it's wednesday!) I wasted my time on crap. I was supposed to organize stuff. Search my readings, find future references and study.. but errm.. I accomplished nothing.. T_T I'm soo bored~ Even though I have a pile of things to do, I don't feel like doing them~ It's hard to be like this. I'm not the type of person who can condition her mind into doing what MUST be done. Instead she only works when she feels like it.. *sigh* poor me~ xD
I really regretted this waste of time.~ I might as well make other ppl happy then~ While waiting for my own happiness xD
arghh~ staying here at home makes me so.. errm.. unproductive. I just wasted my time looking for word->pdf converters, vending in cabal. Chatting with a few friends and well.. Looking for readings online. And as I did so, I realized one thing: It's friggin stupid to look for Filipino Authored Books in the internet. And I thought the internet has it all *sigh*
I need ebooks~ Lots of novels in pdf plx! I'm seriously going to die in the dorm~ I'm living at the extremes now.. *sigh*
I wish my dad would buy me a notebook this christmas~ Then I'll just need an internet connection.. /gg mwahahahahha!~ Okay.. now I'm daydreaming~
Back to boredom.. My subjects are boring, not to mention hard. I miss a fun classroom atmosphere T_T I hardly smile in my classes now, thanks to that dreaded math2 event. I don't feel the same way about school anymore. I hate it more. xD My Eng2 is.. well, akward. The class is so quiet, although I can see attempts of my prof to make it a bit lively, she phails T_T Eng1, erm boring. it's 1-2:30, what can I do? O.o my math1 is uberly nosebleeding T_T I can't understand a thing~ I don't even remember those being taught in Highschool~ Hum1 is well.. yeah boring also. It's my 1st subject so I still feel sleepy. NASC2 is also boring T_T plain powerpoint and fast discussions. And I hate it cause she always gives quizzes T_T I hate studying outside the classroom! X.x and of course my Math2 is hell. although it's one of the candidates for being the lively subject I have, it all became topsy turvy because of that incident >.< YEY!!!
Okay.. this is utterly boring.. I know I'm such a lousy writer, and my life is so dull T_T I need color~ ack! >.< kruu~
Well.. here's something interesting: Where can I find a copy of Midnight Sun?! I heard it's all over the net but I can't find an ENGLISH version.. All I DLed were like.. *nosebleed* in other language T_T
I'm becoming a twilight fan now.. zomg!! *hides*
listening to the melody of: River Flows in You aka Bella's Lullaby
feeling: still lazy.. and I'm still not happy with school~
craving to eat: I still haven't satisfied my craving for S'mores T_T
She wants to: talk to Loki~
but she's stuck: Thinking that she has to sleep early.. xD kailangan 7:30 makalayas nako sa San Pedro~
Yep~ I'm home again (it's wednesday!) I wasted my time on crap. I was supposed to organize stuff. Search my readings, find future references and study.. but errm.. I accomplished nothing.. T_T I'm soo bored~ Even though I have a pile of things to do, I don't feel like doing them~ It's hard to be like this. I'm not the type of person who can condition her mind into doing what MUST be done. Instead she only works when she feels like it.. *sigh* poor me~ xD
I really regretted this waste of time.~ I might as well make other ppl happy then~ While waiting for my own happiness xD
arghh~ staying here at home makes me so.. errm.. unproductive. I just wasted my time looking for word->pdf converters, vending in cabal. Chatting with a few friends and well.. Looking for readings online. And as I did so, I realized one thing: It's friggin stupid to look for Filipino Authored Books in the internet. And I thought the internet has it all *sigh*
I need ebooks~ Lots of novels in pdf plx! I'm seriously going to die in the dorm~ I'm living at the extremes now.. *sigh*
I wish my dad would buy me a notebook this christmas~ Then I'll just need an internet connection.. /gg mwahahahahha!~ Okay.. now I'm daydreaming~
Back to boredom.. My subjects are boring, not to mention hard. I miss a fun classroom atmosphere T_T I hardly smile in my classes now, thanks to that dreaded math2 event. I don't feel the same way about school anymore. I hate it more. xD My Eng2 is.. well, akward. The class is so quiet, although I can see attempts of my prof to make it a bit lively, she phails T_T Eng1, erm boring. it's 1-2:30, what can I do? O.o my math1 is uberly nosebleeding T_T I can't understand a thing~ I don't even remember those being taught in Highschool~ Hum1 is well.. yeah boring also. It's my 1st subject so I still feel sleepy. NASC2 is also boring T_T plain powerpoint and fast discussions. And I hate it cause she always gives quizzes T_T I hate studying outside the classroom! X.x and of course my Math2 is hell. although it's one of the candidates for being the lively subject I have, it all became topsy turvy because of that incident >.< YEY!!!
Okay.. this is utterly boring.. I know I'm such a lousy writer, and my life is so dull T_T I need color~ ack! >.< kruu~
Well.. here's something interesting: Where can I find a copy of Midnight Sun?! I heard it's all over the net but I can't find an ENGLISH version.. All I DLed were like.. *nosebleed* in other language T_T
I'm becoming a twilight fan now.. zomg!! *hides*
It's a bit late to post my sched.. But I will anyways.. xD
Badtrip~ If there's anything I hate, it would be my monday class T_T asar eh~ I'm supposed to enjoy the weekend na.. pero hindi parin T_T brr~ I can't stay away from home for too long~ Not that naho-homesick ako or anything... I'll just miss kamekichi~ that's all.. If I were really rich enough to have an internet connection in my dorm edi wala na kong problema.. Cabal all day long! Hahahaha! este.. nvm >.<
Yan na yun.. xD saya noh? hahaha Goodluck na lang.. sana pagkurap ko tapos na tong sem. Ganun lang naman kabilis ung oras eh.. xD xD
jaa ne!~
~('.'~) Omi~
| Schedule | ||||||
| Time | Mon | Tue | Wed | Thu | Fri | Sat |
| 7-8 | PE 1 - ST1 | |||||
| 8-9 | PE 1 - ST1 | HUM 1(AH) - B2 | HUM 1(AH) - B2 | |||
| 9-10 | HUM 1(AH) - B2 | HUM 1(AH) - B2 | ||||
| 10-11 | ENG 2(AH) - U1 | NASC 2(MST) - C | ENG 2(AH) - U1 | NASC 2(MST) - C | ||
| 11-12 | ENG 2(AH) - U1 | NASC 2(MST) - C | ENG 2(AH) - U1 | NASC 2(MST) - C | ||
| 12-1 | MATH 2(MST) - D | MATH 2(MST) - D | ||||
| 1-2 | CWTS 1 - EF1 | ENG 1(AH) - W1 | ENG 1(AH) - W1 | |||
| 2-3 | CWTS 1 - EF1 | ENG 1(AH) - W1 | ENG 1(AH) - W1 | |||
| 3-4 | CWTS 1 - EF1 | |||||
| 4-5 | MATH 1(MST) - Y | MATH 1(MST) - Y | ||||
| 5-6 | MATH 1(MST) - Y | MATH 1(MST) - Y | ||||
| 6-7 | ||||||
Badtrip~ If there's anything I hate, it would be my monday class T_T asar eh~ I'm supposed to enjoy the weekend na.. pero hindi parin T_T brr~ I can't stay away from home for too long~ Not that naho-homesick ako or anything... I'll just miss kamekichi~ that's all.. If I were really rich enough to have an internet connection in my dorm edi wala na kong problema.. Cabal all day long! Hahahaha! este.. nvm >.<
Yan na yun.. xD saya noh? hahaha Goodluck na lang.. sana pagkurap ko tapos na tong sem. Ganun lang naman kabilis ung oras eh.. xD xD
jaa ne!~
~('.'~) Omi~
The Ghost is lurking at: My room~ wee
listening to the melody of: You Are My Love (Sakura Version)
feeling: Lazy.. I'm seriously not happy with school~
craving to eat: Red Ribbon S'mores *drools*
She wants to: Have another long weekend
but she's stuck: Panicking on how to spend her limited free days T_T
I seriously.. SERIOUSLY BLAME MY CATLIKE/PORING SMILE FOR THIS!! friggin.. arhghhhhh~ !@#$%^&*(^%$#~
*sidenote: I just realized that I scraped my knee during.. uhm.. I'm not quite sure, but since the blood still looks fresh.. I guess it happened when I cleaned the aquarium.. T_T add that to the collection of scars in my feet! yay me!~*
what's with the smile? I dunno~ I just think that smiling always lures me into trouble T_T why? Oh I'll tell you why!~
I friggin look stupid when I smile! XD But I just don't want to have that akward air around me. It's a new semester, I dunno anyone. I don't want to have an akward feeling. So I smile to give a warm atmosphere, I sometimes find random people and talk to them, thanks to that, I have added a few to my small list of acquaintences in elbi.
My subjects look boring.. and not to mention hard~ I hate math.. I hate english, I actually hate everything! LoL! My Hum1 needs a lot of reading, NASC2 demands preparation and stuff.. Buti nga sa Math subjects ko via egroups ung mga powerpoint. I'll just have to download and print. Same goes for my Hum1 readings. Ung NASC2 sa KWE pa.. anlayoo! And I thought sa COOP ko lng makukuha ung mga handouts ko. Di ko na kailangan lumabas ng Campus.
hayz maybe I really look like a retarded child? Kaya siguro akala ng mga tao they could just bully me around. ASA NAMAN! although I admit I DO act like a child at times. That's my way of making things a bit warmer. I mean.. Hindi ako joker, I have no sense of humor whatsoever. And that was the only way I could think of to make people around me smile. Kaso nag below the belt na sila. Maybe it was my fault. I was giving them a hint na pede nila akong basta-basta i-bully~ Well they;re wrong! Kaya humanda talaga sila sa Math2 next meeting. hindi ako kikibo. Magalit sila sa kung magalit. para rin naman sa kanila yun. They'd be thanking me in the future for not making me their leader~
Yes.. As you can see, I don't enjoy my campus life at all. Antisocial ako, I find it hard to keep up with people because I can't fully relate to the trends. So what? Old fashioned ako? weird? The hell I care!~ I'm too picky on friends~ I'm an open person yes, but I choose my friends. Outdated ako, yes~ And I'm not interested in what people of my age are interested in~ They're like.. ewan.. hindi ko alam.. I'm just locked up in my room kasi. Ang interest ko lang talaga.. gaming? anime? music? But I'm also outdated on that. I'm losing the will to continue living na tuloy. Parang tinatamad nako mag-aral and everything. Tinatamad na nga rin akong huminga eh!
Ang layo na ng post ko sa title~ haha! Bakit nga ba first impressions? I'm supposed to write what happened during the first week. But well, nothing changed. It's still hell!!! Medyo nanibago ako magcommute.. sux to be me~ >.< Pero kailangan masanay ulet. Uuwi ako every wednesday~ No doubt na. 1pm ang uwian ko eh. I can easily go home, tpos ang class ko kinabukasan ay 10am pa~ nandun naman ung mga roommates ko so aus na ung cleaning sched namin. Yay!~
Ano nga ba first impressions ko? nasabi ko naman ata.. Lalo na yung rant ko sa math2.. haha.. sux2beme talaga T_T thanks to them tinatamad nako mag-effort sa studies.. that's why I soo hate people!! >.< BRRR!!
~('.'~)Omi
listening to the melody of: You Are My Love (Sakura Version)
feeling: Lazy.. I'm seriously not happy with school~
craving to eat: Red Ribbon S'mores *drools*
She wants to: Have another long weekend
but she's stuck: Panicking on how to spend her limited free days T_T
I seriously.. SERIOUSLY BLAME MY CATLIKE/PORING SMILE FOR THIS!! friggin.. arhghhhhh~ !@#$%^&*(^%$#~
*sidenote: I just realized that I scraped my knee during.. uhm.. I'm not quite sure, but since the blood still looks fresh.. I guess it happened when I cleaned the aquarium.. T_T add that to the collection of scars in my feet! yay me!~*
what's with the smile? I dunno~ I just think that smiling always lures me into trouble T_T why? Oh I'll tell you why!~
I friggin look stupid when I smile! XD But I just don't want to have that akward air around me. It's a new semester, I dunno anyone. I don't want to have an akward feeling. So I smile to give a warm atmosphere, I sometimes find random people and talk to them, thanks to that, I have added a few to my small list of acquaintences in elbi.
My subjects look boring.. and not to mention hard~ I hate math.. I hate english, I actually hate everything! LoL! My Hum1 needs a lot of reading, NASC2 demands preparation and stuff.. Buti nga sa Math subjects ko via egroups ung mga powerpoint. I'll just have to download and print. Same goes for my Hum1 readings. Ung NASC2 sa KWE pa.. anlayoo! And I thought sa COOP ko lng makukuha ung mga handouts ko. Di ko na kailangan lumabas ng Campus.
hayz maybe I really look like a retarded child? Kaya siguro akala ng mga tao they could just bully me around. ASA NAMAN! although I admit I DO act like a child at times. That's my way of making things a bit warmer. I mean.. Hindi ako joker, I have no sense of humor whatsoever. And that was the only way I could think of to make people around me smile. Kaso nag below the belt na sila. Maybe it was my fault. I was giving them a hint na pede nila akong basta-basta i-bully~ Well they;re wrong! Kaya humanda talaga sila sa Math2 next meeting. hindi ako kikibo. Magalit sila sa kung magalit. para rin naman sa kanila yun. They'd be thanking me in the future for not making me their leader~
Yes.. As you can see, I don't enjoy my campus life at all. Antisocial ako, I find it hard to keep up with people because I can't fully relate to the trends. So what? Old fashioned ako? weird? The hell I care!~ I'm too picky on friends~ I'm an open person yes, but I choose my friends. Outdated ako, yes~ And I'm not interested in what people of my age are interested in~ They're like.. ewan.. hindi ko alam.. I'm just locked up in my room kasi. Ang interest ko lang talaga.. gaming? anime? music? But I'm also outdated on that. I'm losing the will to continue living na tuloy. Parang tinatamad nako mag-aral and everything. Tinatamad na nga rin akong huminga eh!
Ang layo na ng post ko sa title~ haha! Bakit nga ba first impressions? I'm supposed to write what happened during the first week. But well, nothing changed. It's still hell!!! Medyo nanibago ako magcommute.. sux to be me~ >.< Pero kailangan masanay ulet. Uuwi ako every wednesday~ No doubt na. 1pm ang uwian ko eh. I can easily go home, tpos ang class ko kinabukasan ay 10am pa~ nandun naman ung mga roommates ko so aus na ung cleaning sched namin. Yay!~
Ano nga ba first impressions ko? nasabi ko naman ata.. Lalo na yung rant ko sa math2.. haha.. sux2beme talaga T_T thanks to them tinatamad nako mag-effort sa studies.. that's why I soo hate people!! >.< BRRR!!
~('.'~)Omi
Alas, the sembreak has come to it's end. I can't say that I enjoyed it, but I can't say that I didn't either~ Now where was that list of things I wanna do.. I need to check if I was able to accomplish those.. xD *rummages through her blog posts* HERE!! Found it!!
1. Attend the RWC = Supposedly a check mark in here~ Kaso wala akong kasama.. Badtrip kasi napaka uncertain ng mga tao sa paligid ko. It was uber too late when my sis texted me telling that she can catch up. Ehdi sana sumabay nako kila Mabmab.. hahayz~ nagalit pa 2loi sakin c Niko. I think I missed a part of my gaming life T_T
2. Go EK with my UPLB friends = Nag-aaya cla Ren ng EK~ May discount kc ung tickets~ sana ma push-through toh~ Kaso napaka weird ng weather dito sa pinas, kaya we decided to cancel it T_T
3. Magshopping sa 168 mall = A check mark on this~ Kaso hindi kasama sina Ahlee at Faith. I went with mom's bunch of college faculty friends.. Hindi ko masyadong nalibot kasi.. Hindi ako makapagpagusto. There were lotsa clothes there.. kaso ung iba maliliit ang sizes.. Sigh T_T
4. Meet up with online friends = nangungulit si lolo trix na magmeet sa festi, and maybe watch a movie, eat.. and hang out~ It took us hours.. even days to come up with a perfect "bahala na si batman" Plan for our gala~ but then again. Some unexpected things came up, so this was also cancelled. This was supposed to be my most anticipated gala this sembreak!! T_T Kruu!!
5. HARDCORE GAMING = YES! even though my PC broke this sembreak, my mom was kind enough to let me use her dual core~ HARDCORE GAMING!! w0oT~ I was able to grind my cabal character from.. apprentice to A.Master.. kung siguro nagtagal pako ng 1day.. Kaya till Gmaster.. mwahahah!~ Lapit nako dual trans!! W0oT!
6. try to learn something = Okay~ Another check mark in here~ Finally marunong nako magbasa ng notes sa F cleft~ and I was able to play some songs like Bach's Minuet, Anime OSTs, and.. errm.. a part of Fur Elise xD
7. Read = check! I buried my nose under the twilight series while my pc was broken xD and I kinda got hooked xD It's pretty much a cliche love story.. But since I'm a sucker for romance.. I loved this!
8. Anime Marathon = It was pretty late when loki gave me new titles to watch~ But thanks to Ren's bokura ga ita, and some unwatched anime here (onegai twins and ikitousen) I'm going to put a check mark in here too~
9. Rest = Hmm~ define rest? I had some rather weird dreams during my sleep this sembreak. But I was really able to slack off, sleep late, wake late.. So I guess that's rest!
10. Siyempre.. last but not least = Spend quality time with teh Loki-sama. Again, the most anticipated moment of my vacation. I feel like he had a rather long stay at our house. I think it was a good thing that my PC broke, he had a reason to come rush over! aside from that, we usually play together online~ so I really had fun!!
There were also some additional sidetrips during my month away from school~
11. My mom took me off to a girl day! She dragged me to the salon, then we went shopping~ I really felt that I was shopping; numerous paperbags.. xD haha! Like the girls in commercials xD haha!!
12. Another shopping spree with Rii!~ Sa wakas! natuloy narin ang starbucks date namin! and yeah~ nag part two pako sa shopping spree~ there goes my semester savings.. haha!!~
13. Magbantay ng shop~ This came in unexpected. I knew my mom would take advantage of my happy mood when Loki is around, she made us work at the shop for two days x.X and she gave the salary to Loki! Who did nothing but read manga in the server while I attend to the customers. riighht~ brr!!
14. I got some Idea to start off with butterfly magic! A story I've been dying to write for years!~ Not sure though~ parang plot pa lang kasi ang nagagawa ko.. not the story itself T_T
Well, that wraps up the things I've done this sembreak. Oh well.. I'll just have to bear one and a half months in school and there's christmas vacation~ I'm sure Our school celebrates that T_T I'll definitely enjoy that break too~ come to think of it.. Nagawa ko rin pala lahat ng gusto kong gawin during the sembreak~ and I thought I was just slacking off.. xD KEWL!~
I have to return to elbi na~ I'll return into the dark reality that I'm a crappy College student.. I have to say goodbye to my gaming persona muna~ xD HeLL-O SCHOOL~ T_T ugh~
I'm Mentally and Socially Unprepared pah.. T_T gawk
~('.'~) Omi~
1. Attend the RWC = Supposedly a check mark in here~ Kaso wala akong kasama.. Badtrip kasi napaka uncertain ng mga tao sa paligid ko. It was uber too late when my sis texted me telling that she can catch up. Ehdi sana sumabay nako kila Mabmab.. hahayz~ nagalit pa 2loi sakin c Niko. I think I missed a part of my gaming life T_T
2. Go EK with my UPLB friends = Nag-aaya cla Ren ng EK~ May discount kc ung tickets~ sana ma push-through toh~ Kaso napaka weird ng weather dito sa pinas, kaya we decided to cancel it T_T
3. Magshopping sa 168 mall = A check mark on this~ Kaso hindi kasama sina Ahlee at Faith. I went with mom's bunch of college faculty friends.. Hindi ko masyadong nalibot kasi.. Hindi ako makapagpagusto. There were lotsa clothes there.. kaso ung iba maliliit ang sizes.. Sigh T_T
4. Meet up with online friends = nangungulit si lolo trix na magmeet sa festi, and maybe watch a movie, eat.. and hang out~ It took us hours.. even days to come up with a perfect "bahala na si batman" Plan for our gala~ but then again. Some unexpected things came up, so this was also cancelled. This was supposed to be my most anticipated gala this sembreak!! T_T Kruu!!
5. HARDCORE GAMING = YES! even though my PC broke this sembreak, my mom was kind enough to let me use her dual core~ HARDCORE GAMING!! w0oT~ I was able to grind my cabal character from.. apprentice to A.Master.. kung siguro nagtagal pako ng 1day.. Kaya till Gmaster.. mwahahah!~ Lapit nako dual trans!! W0oT!
6. try to learn something = Okay~ Another check mark in here~ Finally marunong nako magbasa ng notes sa F cleft~ and I was able to play some songs like Bach's Minuet, Anime OSTs, and.. errm.. a part of Fur Elise xD
7. Read = check! I buried my nose under the twilight series while my pc was broken xD and I kinda got hooked xD It's pretty much a cliche love story.. But since I'm a sucker for romance.. I loved this!
8. Anime Marathon = It was pretty late when loki gave me new titles to watch~ But thanks to Ren's bokura ga ita, and some unwatched anime here (onegai twins and ikitousen) I'm going to put a check mark in here too~
9. Rest = Hmm~ define rest? I had some rather weird dreams during my sleep this sembreak. But I was really able to slack off, sleep late, wake late.. So I guess that's rest!
10. Siyempre.. last but not least = Spend quality time with teh Loki-sama. Again, the most anticipated moment of my vacation. I feel like he had a rather long stay at our house. I think it was a good thing that my PC broke, he had a reason to come rush over! aside from that, we usually play together online~ so I really had fun!!
There were also some additional sidetrips during my month away from school~
11. My mom took me off to a girl day! She dragged me to the salon, then we went shopping~ I really felt that I was shopping; numerous paperbags.. xD haha! Like the girls in commercials xD haha!!
12. Another shopping spree with Rii!~ Sa wakas! natuloy narin ang starbucks date namin! and yeah~ nag part two pako sa shopping spree~ there goes my semester savings.. haha!!~
13. Magbantay ng shop~ This came in unexpected. I knew my mom would take advantage of my happy mood when Loki is around, she made us work at the shop for two days x.X and she gave the salary to Loki! Who did nothing but read manga in the server while I attend to the customers. riighht~ brr!!
14. I got some Idea to start off with butterfly magic! A story I've been dying to write for years!~ Not sure though~ parang plot pa lang kasi ang nagagawa ko.. not the story itself T_T
Well, that wraps up the things I've done this sembreak. Oh well.. I'll just have to bear one and a half months in school and there's christmas vacation~ I'm sure Our school celebrates that T_T I'll definitely enjoy that break too~ come to think of it.. Nagawa ko rin pala lahat ng gusto kong gawin during the sembreak~ and I thought I was just slacking off.. xD KEWL!~
I have to return to elbi na~ I'll return into the dark reality that I'm a crappy College student.. I have to say goodbye to my gaming persona muna~ xD HeLL-O SCHOOL~ T_T ugh~
I'm Mentally and Socially Unprepared pah.. T_T gawk
~('.'~) Omi~
*teary eyed* I just finished watching the anime~ I was moved~
LoL~ It's not really that cliche~ though the ending kept me hanging.. I wanna know what happened?! Were they able to meet at tokyo?! OMG OMG XD anyway.. I'm a sucker for love story anime and jdoramas for some reason.. I remember myself 5-6yrs ago, absoloutely loathing those mushy stuff because well... I was cold back then.. so cold when it comes to lurve~ hahaha!!!
But there's a side-effect for being a love story lover (huh?) like me~ It traps you into fantasy.. into the drama~ into being over emotional on things~ Then there will come some times when you subconsciously think your whole life is just like those stories you watch~ desho desho?? xD well, for me that is~ I learned my lesson nao~ xD Loki-sama no okage de! (all thanks to Loki-sama?)
Bahh!~ My japanese suxx!! >.< I was hoping to go into a 3 to 5-day anime marathon in order to catch up with new titles and improve my japanese but suxx to be me no progress happened T_T xD I need to be involved with the language everydayin order to learn~ How I wish I have a japanese friend so I can talk with her T_T xD
totally random: HARAJUKU!! Since I've been writing about anime and other japanese stuff~ Harajuku popped in my mind~ Last monday we went to 168mall to go shopping~ and uhmm. There were nice clothes back there~ The only problem is they weren't destined to be mine (they don't fit me T_T) Suxx to be me again T_T I'm really convinced that I'm uber phat now T_T *sigh*
another random thought: So what now???
After watching a whole series w/in two days (I got some sidetrips to the gaming world) I want to watch more~ But I can't think of any good titles.. and my kamekichi isn't capable of DLing that much now~ >.<
I want to hang out with some friends~ But I'm scared to spend money ~.~ I couldn't ask my mom because we're pretty tight on the budget recently >.<
I want to play more! But things are getting boring and boring by the minute T_T I admit that I'm not a social person~ I find it hard to get along with normal people~ now I'm convinced that I'm really not normal~ But then again I'm not crazy.. (eh? Isn't denying that you're not crazy a symptom of being crazy?) Ok that was uncalled for! hahaha!! seriously!!
I'd like to participate in the upcoming UP AME event~ not in cosplaying.. but on the karaoke contest~ The last time I want to ozine fest, all the slots were filled~ I was so shattered that time~ But I think I won't be able to make it this year too. The online reservation of tickets was long over even before I knew about the event~ And they're only accepting the 1st 15 contestants.. WOULD I STAND A CHANCE?! Sana magpa-audition sila T_T if they do that I might be able to squeeze through (huwaw, talk about confidence!! LoL!!)
Speaking of event~ I was so excited about attending the RWC last weekend. But I ended up ditching it~ Not because I don't want to or anything.. I just.. don't feel like it. Now is not the time to regret~ But then again I realized what I missed~ esp. when Dada Niko, a guildmate of mine got angry at me.. I'm not even sure why he's so mad! I didn't promised him that we'll go~ I don't know if he's just trying to make fun of me or he's dead seriously angry.. either way.. I'm really sorry for not going~ I kinda regret it~ But there's nothing I can do now right? xD I'll just have to wait for the next event to come!
Hmm what else?? My HS friends are planning on a mall trip this weekend~ and one of them is celebrating his birthday on the next~ my weekends are really jampacked~ xD But my weekdays are damn boring!!! I need some company here >.< XD haha!!
well.. I guess that's about it~ There's already too much randomness here~ xD xD
Jaa nee!!
LoL~ It's not really that cliche~ though the ending kept me hanging.. I wanna know what happened?! Were they able to meet at tokyo?! OMG OMG XD anyway.. I'm a sucker for love story anime and jdoramas for some reason.. I remember myself 5-6yrs ago, absoloutely loathing those mushy stuff because well... I was cold back then.. so cold when it comes to lurve~ hahaha!!!
But there's a side-effect for being a love story lover (huh?) like me~ It traps you into fantasy.. into the drama~ into being over emotional on things~ Then there will come some times when you subconsciously think your whole life is just like those stories you watch~ desho desho?? xD well, for me that is~ I learned my lesson nao~ xD Loki-sama no okage de! (all thanks to Loki-sama?)
Bahh!~ My japanese suxx!! >.< I was hoping to go into a 3 to 5-day anime marathon in order to catch up with new titles and improve my japanese but suxx to be me no progress happened T_T xD I need to be involved with the language everydayin order to learn~ How I wish I have a japanese friend so I can talk with her T_T xD
totally random: HARAJUKU!! Since I've been writing about anime and other japanese stuff~ Harajuku popped in my mind~ Last monday we went to 168mall to go shopping~ and uhmm. There were nice clothes back there~ The only problem is they weren't destined to be mine (they don't fit me T_T) Suxx to be me again T_T I'm really convinced that I'm uber phat now T_T *sigh*
another random thought: So what now???
After watching a whole series w/in two days (I got some sidetrips to the gaming world) I want to watch more~ But I can't think of any good titles.. and my kamekichi isn't capable of DLing that much now~ >.<
I want to hang out with some friends~ But I'm scared to spend money ~.~ I couldn't ask my mom because we're pretty tight on the budget recently >.<
I want to play more! But things are getting boring and boring by the minute T_T I admit that I'm not a social person~ I find it hard to get along with normal people~ now I'm convinced that I'm really not normal~ But then again I'm not crazy.. (eh? Isn't denying that you're not crazy a symptom of being crazy?) Ok that was uncalled for! hahaha!! seriously!!
I'd like to participate in the upcoming UP AME event~ not in cosplaying.. but on the karaoke contest~ The last time I want to ozine fest, all the slots were filled~ I was so shattered that time~ But I think I won't be able to make it this year too. The online reservation of tickets was long over even before I knew about the event~ And they're only accepting the 1st 15 contestants.. WOULD I STAND A CHANCE?! Sana magpa-audition sila T_T if they do that I might be able to squeeze through (huwaw, talk about confidence!! LoL!!)
Speaking of event~ I was so excited about attending the RWC last weekend. But I ended up ditching it~ Not because I don't want to or anything.. I just.. don't feel like it. Now is not the time to regret~ But then again I realized what I missed~ esp. when Dada Niko, a guildmate of mine got angry at me.. I'm not even sure why he's so mad! I didn't promised him that we'll go~ I don't know if he's just trying to make fun of me or he's dead seriously angry.. either way.. I'm really sorry for not going~ I kinda regret it~ But there's nothing I can do now right? xD I'll just have to wait for the next event to come!
Hmm what else?? My HS friends are planning on a mall trip this weekend~ and one of them is celebrating his birthday on the next~ my weekends are really jampacked~ xD But my weekdays are damn boring!!! I need some company here >.< XD haha!!
well.. I guess that's about it~ There's already too much randomness here~ xD xD
Jaa nee!!
The Ghost is lurking at: My room~ wee
listening to the melody of: the motor of my electric fan~
feeling: Confused.. Sembreak na.. I dunno what to do first!!
craving to eat: gyudon parin~
She wants to: Go on a shopping spree
but she's stuck: Staying home, doing household chores~
What are my plans?? XD wahahaha!!
1. Attend the RWC = I really, REALLY want to go there~ Even though I know I can't relate (happens to me recently when I attend RO events) at least I get to see cosplayers, gamers and the like.. Yung mga taong hindi ko nakikita sa school~ xD Bahala na kung may phobia ako sa large crowds~ Pero ang pinoproblema ko.. Kung papayagan ako ni mami~ Haizt~
2. Go EK with my UPLB friends = Nag-aaya cla Ren ng EK~ May discount kc ung tickets~ sana ma push-through toh~ This time I'll really bring a change of clothes~
3. Magshopping sa 168 mall = kasama sina Ahlee at Faith~ I'll have to learn some basic chinese though para maka-tawad kami sa mga intsik na nagbebenta dun.. wahaha~ Kailangan ko ng different set ng clothes for home and school~
4. Meet up with online friends = nangungulit si lolo trix na magmeet sa festi, and maybe watch a movie, eat.. and hang out~ nakakamiss din yun T_T haiizt~
5. HARDCORE GAMING = yes!! I missed playing 24/7~ and I think I'll try to get back there again!
6. try to learn something = mahirap din kung intense gaming lang ang gagawin ko. I'd like to improve my capabilities na rin sana in manipulating photoshop or playing the guitar/piano xD kahit paano naman may progress ako~
7. Read = OMG~ sembreak na sembreak magbabasa?? ng novels and fictional stories siyempre.. Sawang-sawa na koh sa mga reading assignments sa school. It's about time I read something I like.. Maybe I'll start with twilight xD
8. Anime Marathon = I missed this! I'll try to get some nice titles and start having a 3-day anime marathon of sorts~ outdated na talaga ako T_T
9. Rest = Ngayon ko lang narealize ang true definition ng eyebags xD Dati-rati nung HS akala ko malaking problema na yun.. mas lumaki yata ngayon.. xD
10. Siyempre.. last but not least = Spend quality time with teh Loki-sama xD diyos koh! Ang hirap din ng sitwasyon namin >.< but at least we're managing xD kaya this sembreak... Kung pede lang magbakasyon siya dito sa bahay~ I'd like to sit beside him while having my anime marathon T_T
Kakasya kaya yan sa N weeks na bakasyon? I'm not even sure kung anong procedures bago mag 2nd sem eh~ T_T baka mamaya akala ko rest assured na ko, may mga confirmation stuffy pa palang nalalaman O.o hindi ako magkasubjects.. patay! haha
Pero basta~ Habang sembreak I have to make the most out of it.. Kahit medyo mabutas ang wallet.. Basta enjoy. I remember Loki-sama kept telling me not to spend money on arcades theme parks etc.. sayang lang daw.. Para sakin kasi it's not. Hindi naman yung games or ung rides ung binabayaran dun. Para sakin it's the experience. yung memories niyo, those cannot be bought by the money you paid.. diba? *shakes people*
anyway~ I want to do so many things but now I'm helplessly stuck as a helper in this house T_T I gotta start cleaning so I can play early.. Sore jaa!
~('.'~) Omi~
listening to the melody of: the motor of my electric fan~
feeling: Confused.. Sembreak na.. I dunno what to do first!!
craving to eat: gyudon parin~
She wants to: Go on a shopping spree
but she's stuck: Staying home, doing household chores~
What are my plans?? XD wahahaha!!
1. Attend the RWC = I really, REALLY want to go there~ Even though I know I can't relate (happens to me recently when I attend RO events) at least I get to see cosplayers, gamers and the like.. Yung mga taong hindi ko nakikita sa school~ xD Bahala na kung may phobia ako sa large crowds~ Pero ang pinoproblema ko.. Kung papayagan ako ni mami~ Haizt~
2. Go EK with my UPLB friends = Nag-aaya cla Ren ng EK~ May discount kc ung tickets~ sana ma push-through toh~ This time I'll really bring a change of clothes~
3. Magshopping sa 168 mall = kasama sina Ahlee at Faith~ I'll have to learn some basic chinese though para maka-tawad kami sa mga intsik na nagbebenta dun.. wahaha~ Kailangan ko ng different set ng clothes for home and school~
4. Meet up with online friends = nangungulit si lolo trix na magmeet sa festi, and maybe watch a movie, eat.. and hang out~ nakakamiss din yun T_T haiizt~
5. HARDCORE GAMING = yes!! I missed playing 24/7~ and I think I'll try to get back there again!
6. try to learn something = mahirap din kung intense gaming lang ang gagawin ko. I'd like to improve my capabilities na rin sana in manipulating photoshop or playing the guitar/piano xD kahit paano naman may progress ako~
7. Read = OMG~ sembreak na sembreak magbabasa?? ng novels and fictional stories siyempre.. Sawang-sawa na koh sa mga reading assignments sa school. It's about time I read something I like.. Maybe I'll start with twilight xD
8. Anime Marathon = I missed this! I'll try to get some nice titles and start having a 3-day anime marathon of sorts~ outdated na talaga ako T_T
9. Rest = Ngayon ko lang narealize ang true definition ng eyebags xD Dati-rati nung HS akala ko malaking problema na yun.. mas lumaki yata ngayon.. xD
10. Siyempre.. last but not least = Spend quality time with teh Loki-sama xD diyos koh! Ang hirap din ng sitwasyon namin >.< but at least we're managing xD kaya this sembreak... Kung pede lang magbakasyon siya dito sa bahay~ I'd like to sit beside him while having my anime marathon T_T
Kakasya kaya yan sa N weeks na bakasyon? I'm not even sure kung anong procedures bago mag 2nd sem eh~ T_T baka mamaya akala ko rest assured na ko, may mga confirmation stuffy pa palang nalalaman O.o hindi ako magkasubjects.. patay! haha
Pero basta~ Habang sembreak I have to make the most out of it.. Kahit medyo mabutas ang wallet.. Basta enjoy. I remember Loki-sama kept telling me not to spend money on arcades theme parks etc.. sayang lang daw.. Para sakin kasi it's not. Hindi naman yung games or ung rides ung binabayaran dun. Para sakin it's the experience. yung memories niyo, those cannot be bought by the money you paid.. diba? *shakes people*
anyway~ I want to do so many things but now I'm helplessly stuck as a helper in this house T_T I gotta start cleaning so I can play early.. Sore jaa!
~('.'~) Omi~
The Ghost is lurking at: My room~ wee
listening to the melody of: My recorded voice, delivering the damned speech
feeling: Sembreak na sembreak na koh!! >.<
craving to eat: gyudon
She wants to: Have a grand vacation
but she's stuck: Memorizing her speech T_T w/c is not progressing.~
*sigh* I want my sembreak~ I want to become the lazy bum that I really am~ Stay confined in my room, play all day, sleep~ I want to go out, hang out with my friends.. then pig out~ Haaaayzzz
I'm liek 70% in my speech~ It's actually easy to memorize, but who would be able to focus if her mind is drifting to another dimension. I need to memorize my speech but my mind is liek: "J0o wants to cosplay, but a new phone, go shopping, meet your friends, slack off.. etc"
DAHEK!!!
I can't seem to clear my mind now.. Sembreak na sembreak na koh!!
But then again~ I can't fully enjoy my sembreak without teh loki-sama~ I've been dying to punch him in the face~ nyahahaha
Brr~ too much excitement~ Must.. convert.. this.. energy.. into.. studying.. energy.. whateveryoucallitthingimagigy~ >.< I just hope I passed my SOSC1 exam.. If I didn't, I'll have to take another exam on the 21st. AMP!~ so liek~ I really won't be spending my vacation away from school parin. As much as possible I don't want to return there T_T I want to graduate as soon as possible so I can earn moolah.. It really pisses me off to see even myself, trying to acquire money~ for me it's really worthless.. But I can't do things I want and I have to without it.. I have no choice.. *sigh*
Okay.. I'm filling this entry with randomness nao.. I should be memorizing my speech~ but I'm hungreh.. I just remembered.. I didn't ate dinner~ xD wahaha.. I really need to go on a diet.. If I want to cosplay I should least be fit enough and well.. "beautiful" enough.. so I guess cosplay is impossible for teh mumu nao.. *cries*
nyweiz~ I'll be on my way nao~~ jaa!!
~('.'~)Omi~
listening to the melody of: My recorded voice, delivering the damned speech
feeling: Sembreak na sembreak na koh!! >.<
craving to eat: gyudon
She wants to: Have a grand vacation
but she's stuck: Memorizing her speech T_T w/c is not progressing.~
*sigh* I want my sembreak~ I want to become the lazy bum that I really am~ Stay confined in my room, play all day, sleep~ I want to go out, hang out with my friends.. then pig out~ Haaaayzzz
I'm liek 70% in my speech~ It's actually easy to memorize, but who would be able to focus if her mind is drifting to another dimension. I need to memorize my speech but my mind is liek: "J0o wants to cosplay, but a new phone, go shopping, meet your friends, slack off.. etc"
DAHEK!!!
I can't seem to clear my mind now.. Sembreak na sembreak na koh!!
But then again~ I can't fully enjoy my sembreak without teh loki-sama~ I've been dying to punch him in the face~ nyahahaha
Brr~ too much excitement~ Must.. convert.. this.. energy.. into.. studying.. energy.. whateveryoucallitthingimagigy~ >.< I just hope I passed my SOSC1 exam.. If I didn't, I'll have to take another exam on the 21st. AMP!~ so liek~ I really won't be spending my vacation away from school parin. As much as possible I don't want to return there T_T I want to graduate as soon as possible so I can earn moolah.. It really pisses me off to see even myself, trying to acquire money~ for me it's really worthless.. But I can't do things I want and I have to without it.. I have no choice.. *sigh*
Okay.. I'm filling this entry with randomness nao.. I should be memorizing my speech~ but I'm hungreh.. I just remembered.. I didn't ate dinner~ xD wahaha.. I really need to go on a diet.. If I want to cosplay I should least be fit enough and well.. "beautiful" enough.. so I guess cosplay is impossible for teh mumu nao.. *cries*
nyweiz~ I'll be on my way nao~~ jaa!!
~('.'~)Omi~
